New Years Eve

we had a nice New Year’s eve with baby girl. we went out to eat at Crabby’s Oyster bar. we got 2 dozen oysters lol cuz they were  cheaper due to happy hour. we also got some jerk shrimp. sophia was grumpy a lot of the day but had good moments. she was good at the restaurant and i was worried she wasn’t gonna be. we almost didn’t go in cuz she was so grumpy. we took her for a late night walk to look and see if any fireworks were going off in the neighborhood. we moved my dresser into the bedroom and i started to put all my clothes into it. so my side of the room is coming along. sophia’s room is still getting there but it’s ready for her to sleep in. it’s gonna be a nightmare trying to teach her to sleep in her crib. she’s slept with us for so long and now that she’s almost a year old it’s gonna be rough. she’s gonna scream and cry and we’re gonna have to let her do that. it’s gonna break my heart. but i’m gonna try the method where you put her in the crib drowsy and then say good night and leave. she will scream and cry and we’ll have to wait a certain amount of time and then you go back in the room and say good night again. then wait a longer period and repeat the process til baby is asleep. i’m sure i’ll cave in and pick her up but i gotta try cuz she needs to sleep in there by herself. 

so my bf and i have been discussing the mom. my bf finally seeing things with her how they are. he’s getting mad and tired of it. he wants to talk to her when i’m not there in case it becomes messy which it prob will. she’ll get all mad and act like a victim which will fuel his fire. he’s probably not gonna be nice and i don’t blame him. he was heated talking about her the other night. i’m glad he is seeing who she really is cuz im sure growing up with that narc gave him emotional trauma that he doesn’t even realize. he once told me when he was 14, he forgot mother’s day so to get back at her own son she refused to acknowledge or speak to him for 2 weeks. wtf? she also use to throw caged rats in the pool to drown. psycho. a legit psychopath. we talked again about the footage of her calling me a bitch in that creepy way and he still says he doesn’t hear “bitch” but he said it was definitely weird and she sounded and looked demonic when she was saying it. he said he won’t show her the footage like he was going to. which i agree he shouldn’t cuz she’s free to call me names or whatever if she feels like it if she’s alone in the house lol i mean free to do what you want. doesn’t make it any less creepy but still. i just told him to tell her to stay on her side of the house and stop coming around, creeping around our rooms. 

after we got back from the zoo she was so mean to him. he was on the porch talking to her telling her how we took sophia to the zoo and she goes “i saw.” in a rude tone. like a normal mom would be curious how it went for sophia’s first time. or asking if we had fun. but not the grinch. she started complaining about sophia’s tent being out there, the kitchen “being a mess” cuz we have water jugs on the counter, and insinuating i don’t do anything. she was like “don’t you get tired of doing everything”………. after he said he was gonna get our belongings out of the trailer. like i have sophia i take care of all the time. what do you mean??? he has been taking her in the kitchen for breakfast in the morning because i don’t wanna be around her and her demonic self hovering over sophia. and secondly i make the beds and clean up the room. then the rest of the day and night im with sophia taking care of her. he always has practice and leaves and goes out to shows. i am always with my baby. so insinuating i dont do anything is ridiculous. she just is so fucking bitter. she “apologized” to him for being rude the next day but he said it didn’t feel genuine and called it half assed. 

so he went to work today and i left to my moms again. i’m staying here u til he gets off to work.