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car seats installed in my car all the way now i can take her places. i wanna practice first with someone else though so i’m not alone if i run into a complication the first time. i hope she’ll be good about getting in it and being in my car. she just started getting a bit better at being put in car seat the past few times. tomorrow she has a pediatric visit and i hope it goes smoothly. i get to see my old childhood doctor and i wonder if she’ll recognize me.  i have seen her around the office and she looos exactly the same. like no aging or anything wtf. so tomorrow i’m curious about baby girls weight and height. her looking like a 1 year old but she’s only 9 months is crazy. 

so i’ve been feeling mega depressed lately. idk if it’s circumstances right now or i need my antipsychs upped. i wish they’d just give me what helps me all around but they’re so weird about giving adhd meds. she doesn’t want me to “get manic” on stimulants but i’ve never been manic on stims. only manic on NO meds. i was prescribed this for years, lost insurance then lost my dr when she retired. so wtf why is this such a “no” now. i’m gonna go to this next visit one last time and if i still can’t get thru to these people then im finding someone who will help me. i’m so damn depressed again. i just wanna feel better.