sophia’s 1st july 4th

today with baby girl was full of laughter and screeches. she was laughing and doing this new high pitch scream of excitement all throughout the stores today. all day at the house. it was so cute. she hung out in her high chair longer than usual before whining to get out. we cooked and made deviled eggs, spinach dip, hamburgers and hotdogs with potato wedges. plus some jell-o shots. 

she’s been struggling at night with staying asleep in her own bed. i hope she stays asleep since i moved her from our bed to her own. i’m tired and my eyes itch. i think the eyelash glue is irritating my eyes. 

yooo so i had to make an appt with a podiatrist for the first time in my life. had to get my toes worked on since i fucked up the growing of my nails from wearing too small sized shoes for halloween a couple years ago. so they had to give me 3 shots of numbing shit IN my toes and it was the worst pain ever omg. i have a high tolerance to pain but holy geez i was putting my face in my hands and i could have cried if i wanted to. but my baby and my bf were in the room with me and he gave me sophia’s stuffed lizard to hold tightly. 😭 but once i was numb the dr just dug out my nails on the sides. he cut them and then added some acid shit to keep it from growing in the same spot. insane. he dugggggg in there it was brutal to watch but i didn’t feel anything. he said “your daughter is being really good”. i said “thank god”. so im recovering from that 😭 my bf had to go into the store today and buy me sandals cuz i can’t wear normal shoes for like 2 weeks. i hate flip flops with a passion but it’s cheap and i need them. it i picked out the platform ones go at least be to my liking. so now i have a scrape on my feet from the flip flops rubbing on the top. so my poor feet are all kinds of fucked up. 

ok back to today… we didn’t go see fireworks this year because they weren’t going off til 9pm and sophia gets a bath now at 8:30 instead of 9:30 to try and sleep train her to go to bed earlier. so that and if we did take her, what if she were to scream and cry and be miserable and we’d be stuck in a crowd of people. so nah we stayed home this year. i don’t care about fireworks that much anyway 🤷🏼‍♀️ 

i wanna schedule a hair appt tomorrow for this month. i think i might only be able to afford a mini partial but ill see. i want more coverage cuz my roots as shown above are too obvious. that’s why i don’t wanna take so long in between sessions but its costly 😭 i would go every 3 months but i wanna try for every 2.