rant time

been a stressful week. 650.00 later my bfs vehicle is fixed. my mom is depressed and talking to my dad about moving the fuck out of here. she told him it’s not been good at all staying here and it’s time to move out and have her own place that she’s dying to have. the housing prices just won’t go down and it’s time to say fuck it and work out moving out. i think she stayed longer though mostly to help me with my baby. honestly its only way im comfortable being here. when she moves i wont be. i told her i hardly wanna stay here too with my bfs weird ass mom. fucking whacko. she had something else to complain over today. it’s always something. like i said biggest fucking baby i’ve ever had to displeasure of knowing. she’s such a fucking child at 70+ it’s embarrassing. she came in the room while i was cleaning my guinea pigs cage so already it wasn’t the time to come in the room with everyone already in there and me cleaning. she has to comeeeee in to see sophia and be obnoxious and in the way with no concern for me or anyone else that she might be in the way of. she’s soooo obsessed with this stupid fucking chair. every time she’s talking to my baby she’s like “and maybe you can use that chair” everyyyy. timeeee. she pushed me to put her in it a week ago. like it was obvious i didn’t want her to put sophia in it and she insisted and im too meek to say anything so i angrily do it. so she put her in it and last week and put it on the bed too. she put my baby in it and then just leaves. ???? you wanted to see her in it so fucking bad yet you leave after? so i got her out right away cuz i didn’t want her in it and my baby is like getting kinda stuck. cuz the chair is too small. i took the chair and put it back out of our bedroom. so back to today. she brings up the stupid chair again. my mom got so mad and irritated by it she left the room and went outside. i went outside with her and i could hear sophia crying. my bf and his mom were in the room and the mom annoyingly gets the chair and when she tried putting it on the bed my bf got mad. he told her not to put chairs on the bed cuz it’s dirty to and she was all ~boohoo~ again “no one uses what i buy for her they always use everything else” then he snapped back about it and said “also don’t put your fingers in my sophia’s mouth!” FINALLY. i’ve told him to tell her this so many times. the last week she did it again. i’m really needing to get a backbone and start being assertive. i really do for my baby’s sake. so my baby grabs the moms hand and tries to eat her finger and the mom just lets her and asks her if it taste good. !!!!!!!! i’m like “noo…” and i tried to pull my baby away. it felt so uncomfortable. like i was trapped in an uncomfortable situation and was too afraid to say something. it feels so fucking gross and violating. it’s absolutely gross but what’s also fucked is that she does this and thinks it’s okay. in front of me too. like??? that’s disrespectful to me to just put your fingers in someone’s babies mouth like that is fucking gross, weird and disrespectful to the parent. you don’t just go around doing that to people. so why do it to a baby? so my bf scolded her about it and she goes “well i guess that’s just your parents ways” as if she has her own parenting ways and she’s fine with it. like no shit he’s her father. he has a say in it. she got all offended and huffy puffy he told me. she’s such a weirdo bitch i hate her. 

she is also obsessed with constantly bringing up these sandals that are for 4 years olds that she bought sophia. she is constantly hinting around and bringing them up. SHE CANT WEAR THEM YOU DOLT. like does this hag ever look at sizing?? it says they’re for toddlers on the shoes. my baby can’t fucking wear them. she’s just shy of 5 months old. i swear she’s so stupid. she obsessively rings up these things cuz she wants praise and attention for buying stuff for baby. then gets super offended and mad when we don’t or can’t use them. like we never asked you to buy this stuff. this is on your own free will. she always does that. she’ll do “nice” things for people when they didn’t ask for it and gets upset she didn’t get the ass kissing she thinks she deserves for ~going out of her way~ to be nice. nobody asked you to. 

so tonight she’s all mad saying we took too long to use the things she got us and is mad we’re using the one our friends got us off our registry. like i’m not sorry i don’t want the used one you got from a yard sale. i’m not sorry that my baby wasn’t ready for it when you bought it cuz she couldn’t sit up well enough with assistance yet. i’m not sorry that my baby is now ready to sit with assistance and can’t use it cuz she’s bigger than your average 4 month old. like that’s too bad and sounds like a you problem. 

always whoa is me. always mad about something that didn’t go your way. always a big fucking baby about MY baby. the way she acts is like a 7 year old. it’s sooooooo embarrassing i just can’t. i told my bf  “i don’t like your mom. i never will either and that’s on her. she brought that on herself”. 

every day i go out in the kitchen to grab a bottle and all i hear blasting from her ipad is “pedophile… rapist… president carter and blah blah blah”. she always listening to weird shit about human trafficking and pedos and how every celebrity is a pedo. like who fucking cares. it’s out there, we know. i also don’t want my baby hearing that garbage either. she thinks donald trump is the savior to fix all problems. she tonight was going on about spies and devils or whatever idk. like this my friends is a lady who would kill us all in the night. i feel like this old lady would hire someone to kill all of us in our sleep. if someone she listened to online said she needed to kill us all to “better the world” or whatever she thinks she’d do it. if trump told people to kill their families she’d do it. she makes me uncomfortable as fuck. i don’t wanna be here. my family doesn’t want to be here or leave me here cuz they know how miserable the mom makes

me and everyone she comes in contact with. she bullies me in a way too cuz she knows i won’t be assertive. i need to learn to be though. i can’t live like this and i won’t let this bitch bully me out of here. i have a family here with her son and with a baby now. she can learn to live with ME, not the other way around. as long as she doesn’t kill us. 

tired of it. tired of her passive aggressiveness aimed at

me when she talks to my baby. she talks to my baby and says shit like “you need to come out of the rooom more your mom likes to keep the door closed so i don’t hear you”. like shit like that aimed at me. says it in front of me but as if she’s talking to sophia. it’s so WEIRD. like help!!! this is why i’m miserable. i never want to leave the bedroom. i sneak around to get bottles and food cuz i don’t wanna interact with her. it’s so awful. i wish she’d go away. at least go on a weekend trip like she use to once a year. just. goooo awayyyyy. for more than just 5 minutes. when i see the car gone i run to the kitchen and grab what i need. sometimes i get excited about it and start doing extra stuff and she manages to come home right when im doing something. so i have to hurry up and go back to the room so i don’t have to talk to senior psychopath.