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i woke up way too early and am not getting much sleep today i guess. my brain is fired up again and i am just thinking… what baffles me is how life works. how do people who work their asses off in life and still have nothing are shit on. while rich/well off people and rich/well off people who are bad people get to live it up? my bf believes in karma but where’s karma been? where you at? i swear rich/well off people don’t live in the real world. they absolutely don't. i’ve watched people’s livestreams on tiktok who are rich e-beg for money from regular joes. sitting there, doing nothing but begging for “gifts” and likes that turn into real money. like??? you’re begging us peasants for more money when you HAVE money. and the regular joes SEND THEM that money just to get noticed. it’s so sad man. there is a huge circle of them also sending each other those gifts back and forth to higher their rankings in who is the most popular. it’s pretty fucking sick. they sit there, have no talent, no social skills and just send each other hundreds and thousands worth of money back and forth because they’re rich and can just throw money around. i mean i struggle to pay to get my hair done or my car fixed that would equal to the amount that gets thrown at them. so then they have regular people sending them money after begging and telling them to “smash that like”. it’s absolutely insane. these people i swear aren’t on the same planet as the rest of us. my mom has worked her ass off all of her life. hard at work to raise 3 of us and still helps us. my mom is a really good hearted person and will do anything for her kids. so she’ll always be there for us to help us with things we need. even just things we want, when she has nothing right now. goes to show you what kind of person she is. my mom left her small home town in Indiana to start boot camp to better her life. she said she didn’t wanna be a waitress all of her life and left at 18 years old to join the navy. then at 18 when she joined boot camp, her dad dies of a heart attack and found out AT BOOT CAMP!  like that’s real life shit. my mom has been cheated on by my dad. screwed over financially because he was an alcoholic. i’m sure that changed a part of her and has left trauma in her soul. so my mom who works hard, has been shit on and is still working hard to this day, is living like she is right now? how is that fair? i decided one night to look up my father and his wife. they live in a fucking mansion. huge yard that looks like a forest to be encasing it. living it up in this gigantic home. i remember when my father told me “money isn’t what it use to be” when. i asked him for help when i burnt all my hair off. that’s fucking hysterical and i’m not laughing. he worked hard to have this life sure, but he’s a bad person. money isn’t what it use to be so what you have 1 less million now? why does he get to have this fantastic new life, new wife who has 3 kids of her own, in this mansion who has done nothing but traumatize me and leave my mind, body and soul scarred for the rest of my life? my mom, who a good person, will do everything for me and still does, lives in my bfs house in a small room here. yet my dad who claims money isn’t what it use to be, completely abandoned me as a newborn for starters. left my mom with me, never paid for anything, never helped my mom, never sent money. was just non existent in my life until i was 22. then wants to form a relationship with me to do horrible things to me and leave me with forever lasting trauma? we just gonna sweep it under the rug and act like it never happened?  i guess so. i don’t think i even need to say what happened. i’ve been dealing with this for years and years since i was 22 years old. swept it under the rug. we act normal whenever we do talk which is hardly ever. as if everything is fucking normal. it’s far from normal. so somebody like that is living their life to the fullest in their mansion. no concern for money or bills. it just doesn’t make sense if karma is a real thing. i’ll never understand people with money. they think they can do whatever they want, no consequences. no rules apply to them. they live in their own worlds and the real world does not exist to them. the real struggles people face daily isn’t a thing to them. back to tiktok people… people like them will make content around money without awareness are the same people ebegging us for money and fame. it’s really just super gross. it’s unbelievable. would i trade money and fame, (well money, i wouldn’t want fame) for the good things i have that are not materialistic? no. i wouldn’t change who i am for money nor would i want to live a life where all i do is sit online asking people for money all day without friends or real family. because from the ones that i have seen don’t have true friends. don’t have good family. so maybe they don’t have it all. idk. i know life is unfair and blah blah. but man can it really be just that. i know material items don’t matter in the end but it sure would take huge stress off. i just don’t understand why things are the way they are. thats life i guess.