so i end up reading my bfs texts from her and she just talked shit. talking about my family and how ungrateful they are. she said “i’m tired of these people in my house”. yet my mom has numerous times offered her extra money and always explains her appreciation for letting them stay here during this hard economic time. not to mention this is also my boyfriends house. so she had no problem bashing them about being ungrateful. then complains how none of us talk to her or say hello. first off you’re crazy and all you do is spout out trump and conspiracy bullshit. second even if you were the nicest person on the planet we wouldn’t come out and chit chat. we’re just not those kind of people. we keep to ourselves as family and that’s really it. complains about me and how ungrateful i am because she “let” me have a small corner of the kitchen and shittily painted the kitchen a color my bf said we wanted. the paint was half assed and painted with latex so that it could peel off easy when she didn’t want it anymore. also i never told or asked her ti paint it. we just said itd look good. saying how it’s been on going for over a year now? my family might be staying here but i live here with my bf and my baby. you can’t let me have half of the kitchen to decorate? you’re hardly in the kitchen but to be in and out. i’m in there a lot for baby bottles and cooking dinner with my bf. so all she did was complain about me and my family being ungrateful and how my bf does everything and “that will just be your life for the rest of your life” she said to him. like he will just live his future with me doing everything for me. so fucking what? he chooses to cuz he loves me and sophia. he never holds that over me. i wanna say this… “im gonna get you a big wooden cross so that any time you feel unappreciated for all your sacrifices, you can climb up on it and nail yourself to it.” martyr mcfly.
when my mom told her people do things for others because it makes them feel better about themselves she was like “no!” that’s bc it’s true. she does all this “nice” stuff but has to go off on how unappreciative everyone is. you should do things for others cuz you care and not make it about you.
i feel like all this really started with the AC. then moving my bowls. she’s like a petty child. the. i got sick of it, moved my shit in place of hers and now this is happening. and the worst part is. is what she said to my bf. he told her she needs to stop listening to all this negative stuff it’s corrupting her mind. she looks at him dead in the eyes and practically tells “fuck off”. that hurt him so bad. i know it did. he’s a sensitive soul and to hear your own mom say that to you with such anger and hate is just disgusting. i couldn’t imagine my mom ever talking to me like that nor would i ever to my own. fucking nut job. i feel so bad for my bf.
so i M DONE being semi nice. i am over it. i am NOT going to let this mean old bitch bring me down anymore to her hateful level. i was feeding sophia earlier and i was sitting there harping hate and anger about the situation and i saw sophia look at me in a way that really bothered me. she looked at me with concern and worry? like “what’s going on” look and i don’t like that at all i don’t ever want my baby worrying over me being angry.
i just will not ever allow her to hold my baby again. in fact don’t even so much as look or talk to my baby ever again. you miserable old bitch. i’m not going to be nice ever again. my mom said she is going to be leaving here hopefully in the next few months and im gonna be leaving too. but for now i won’t let her scare me away. im gonna go in kitchen as normal and do my things as normal and not let her negativity get to me. i’m just gonna ignore her and act like she doesn’t exist and to help me do that ill wear headphones anytime i go to the kitchen. can’t hear you. you don’t exist.
shitty it’s come to this mostly cuz it hurt my bfs heart to be talked to and treat that way by his own mom bc of petty hang ups. sad.
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