night out for anniversary

went out but it was hard to fully have a great time cuz baby girl was not doing well. she was screaming and crying around the time we were getting ready. my mom said she’d handle it but i could tell she wasn’t in the mood to deal with a screaming baby.  so i kept checking back in and getting updated. went to Yum Yum Hot Pot and ordered a Blue moon and funny the lady asked me how old i was as if i wasn’t old enough to drink. i told her and she then asked me what year i was born like she didn’t believe me. then she was saying “good for you” i guess cuz she thought i looked young. then after dinner and said i look 18. very funny but honestly i wouldn’t say i look THAT young but hey ill take it. 

so after asking my mom in text if we should just come home or could i continue my night. but she said baby was asleep for the time being. so we went out and i felt super uncomfortable about it cuz i felt bad she was dealing with her fussy. but we went out and stayed til about 12:30am. 

okay now it’s time to rant my ass off cuz i’m still super pissed off about this…

so bfs mom… again. harassing me about sophia. she is insane dude like i really think she’s delusional more and more every day. she came into the room yesterday and was like “i just wanna get something off my chest” and basically said she wanted to get a car seat for her car so she can take me and sophia out. saying she doesn’t get enough stimulation and she needs to get out more. so she said she could take us out and drop ME off  “at the mall” while she has sophia and she’d come pick me up when i’m ready…. 

okay so first off, uh… no. fuck no actually. i barely like you having her here and this whole drama is you bitching that you never get to hold her and blah blah. what makes you think id let you take my baby alone in a car anywhere. without me. like… no mother would be chill about someone taking their baby that’s barely 2 fucking months old out without them. not ever. also you drive like shit and jerk the wheel left and right weirdly, slam on breaks. absolutely not. and id never want to go to the mall by myself. what? i don’t go places alone it’s known. it’s out of my comfort zone. his mom is so fucking stupid with that shit. like it makes me wonder are you really fucking dumb? why would i be okay with this idea. likeeeee????? she needs to back the fuck up. my baby is 2 months old and can’t even sit up by herself let alone keep her head up without support fully. she doesn’t need anything but to sleep, shit, eat and be with me. we are literally talking about a new baby here. she’s not 1 years old, not even 6 months. not to mention, bitch i’m on HER schedule because that’s what you do with a 2 month old. you sleep when she sleeps. she’s up late nights and sometimes doesn’t sleep til 5am. she sleeps all day.  she makes it sound like i never do anything with her and im holding her hostage in the room all day. her fucking sly ass comments are confirmed sly. she held her yesterday when she was screaming and she’s talking to my baby saying “are you just boreddddd?” like insinuating she’s bored in the room with me. then don’t get me started on her talking to my baby saying “i never get to see you that much”. like she’s so fucking passive aggressive i can’t. 

so what makes this old lady think she can totally handle sophia out. when sophia is screaming and she has her, what does she do? she brings her right back cuz she can’t handle it. so she can handle sophia screaming in a car seat, pooping, changing and dealing with a car seat and stroller by her old ass self. me and my bf struggle with all of that when we take her out. she is so fucking out there dude it’s like she doesn’t think rationally whatsoever. so my bf is like “well i appreciate that but kaleys getting her car situated soon and will be getting a car seat so we’ll already have all that”. then my bf goes on the porch to tell her he appreciates the offer and stuff trying to be nice and she goes “nothing i ever do is good enough” all salty toned. MY GODDDDD. fucking shut upppppppp. always a victim always woe is me always offended and negative. like the way she acts about this whole situation is super fucking weird. i’m already paranoid she’s going to try and kidnap my baby and give her to some weird cult people. i always said it was an intrusive thought and is just me being irrational but im starting to really believe my intrusive thought now. fucking weirdo. her and her cult bullshit and her conspiracy garbage. just stay away from me. leave me alone. 

like how do we go from my mom trying to explain to you that i’ll be more receptive if you just came right out and asked me to hold my baby. id more than likely say yes unless im busy with her. but no you get offended and say people try and tell you what to do and you were a bitch about it so you jump further and offer to get a car seat and take my baby. seriously either stupid or fucking mentally challenged. i’m tired of it.  an she just be placed in a home? like let me and my bf and my baby live here as our own little family. go away and take your stupid ipad and sit in a chair in a nursing home watching your creepy propaganda. 

my family is right. i’m just gonna have to tell her myself since she isn’t grasping anyone else’s advice. i won’t be nice either. i’m going to have to be stern.