baby reindeer

so i broke down and watched Baby Reindeer. i’ve been hearing really good things about it and when my sister told me the guy in it wrote it about his experiences and played himself. thought that was pretty interesting. so i watched it alone and i loved it. i cried and laughed but never did i think id relate so much to him, his decisions, why he did things, his confusion and constant questioning of himself and his choices or feelings. damn. i related to both instances be went thru. the way he went about those things and the whys. but when it comes down to it abuse is abuse. no matter how you handle it, it shouldn’t have happened and abusers are just evil, bad people. i gotta say it was so good i watched it again but with my bf this time. he agreed it was so good. his monologue on stage when he broke down telling the audience what happened to him and how he feels made me tear up pretty badly. i felt that in my heart. 💔 

one thing i will say that bothered me was how he said that they went out of their way to disguise the stalker by making the actress look nothing like the real person. but people have already found the real woman on social media linking her and him through twitter. the way she is in the series is identical to the real woman’s posts. the way she types, what she posts about constantly, obviously looks the same as the actress. she’s already been found out and people keep bugging her i assume is why her comments are turned off now. the woman is clearly mentally ill. you can tell in how she writes and her obsession with politics. i wonder what she thinks about the series, she has to know now since im sure people have been messaging her. yikes idk.