rough day

baby girl was screaming bloody murder today from trying to poop. we had 3 episodes of her screaming and crying and pooping. the second episode after she finally went some, i changed her and she calmed down, i cried. just emotions run. it’s a lot seeing her like that breaks my heart. causes me anxiety cuz i can’t do anything really. i did the leg exercises on her and rubbed her stomach but she just screamed her head off. it happened again a third time but so far it seems like she got it out. i thought maybe trying a different formula would help but the more i look into it the more i feel like it’s not constipation. she’s going and all looks normal but she’s struggling because she’s not using the correct muscles. she is still learning how to poop i guess. it’s called dyschezia or something. basically she isn’t relaxing her muscles and instead is using her diaphragm which is why her belly gets hard when she tries and is tightening her 🕳️ . so all i can do is keep doing the leg exercises to help her relax her muscles to let it happen. reminds me of when i was giving birth. i was doing the same kind of thing. i was not using the correct muscles to push her out. they told me to use the muscles i use to shit and i kept not understanding how with all the pain and the holding and counting. well, she is still learning and im hoping over time she’ll be able to poop easier cuz man its brutal watching her scream like that. it’s so heart breaking. 😞  i hate seeing her in any kind of pain or discomfort.