first night out since baby

so i finally had a night out and met friends at the bar. first bf and i went to mexican restaurant for a margarita and an appetizer. then we walked over to the bar to see friends. i partied until 5am cuz after the bar closed me, paige and bf went back to the house and talked for so long we didn’t realize it was 5am. my mom cane on the porch and had my baby ready to give to me. i was honestly not prepared for that and it was rough staying awake after a long night out. luckily i got a few small naps in there during the day. bf took off work too cuz we were beat. i gotta say it was fun when out but im honestly good on going out for a while and getting trashed. i got it out of my system and im good on that. 

now im awake with her cuz she won’t go to sleep. idk what to do. my back is hurting so bad from standing and sitting up with her all night. she finally pooped and i thought she’d go to sleep after. i even fed her another bottle and she’s stillllll awake, crying on and off. i read 6-8 weeks is the toughest in the newborn stage and she’s going to be 6 weeks on Tuesday. ugh my friend told me last night that when her baby hit 11 weeks, it got a lot better. sigh that feels so far away

i wish i got pics of myself last night cuz i was complimented by friends at how good i look after baby. like my body looks good… well it looks good in clothes lol i wore a red dress, fishnets and some black platform boots. my stomach looks good in clothes but out of them im still working on losing baby aftermath. 

i want to sleep so bad. i just want her to sleep i feel in getting close but i also thought that an hour and a half ago.