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February 19, 2024

fed up

one thing i’m saying right now for the record, i do not give a fuck about anyone’s feelings except my baby's. the important thing to me is my baby and nothing else. 

going thru drama with people cuz they’re trying to manipulate to get what they want and now it’s having to do with my baby. not here for that so fuck off. 

bfs mom is acting like a real weirdo about things. it’s pissing me off, in fact pissing us all off. she tries this ~woe is me i’m a victim no one likes me bullshit that i can’t stand. she always does this. she’ll let you know by making passive aggressive comments and it’s always “no one talks to me. no one includes me. no one likes me. wah wah” she puts it in her own head too.  there’s been recent times when my bf and i will be talking to her in the kitchen and then the moment me and him are just talking she gets offended. she’ll make comments like “you guys don’t have to whisper i can leave”…..??? then we’ll be talking in a room and she’ll be like “what are you guys saying about me?” like in a “joking” way but she’s not joking. it’s like if you’re not talking to her she takes immediate offense. she got weird at my baby shower where she disappeared and sat away from everyone cuz there was probably a point where she wasn’t being spoken to. like that day was about me but in her head it’s about her in some way. then here is most recent examples that royally pissed me off. 

-we were at the hospital when i was being induced. which by the way we told her she didn’t need to be there during this cuz it’s a lot of waiting around and it in fact took 2 days. so she shows up to visit and while we were all in the hospital room she just stops talking and goes silent for a long time. i knew at that point she was mad or upset cuz she stopped talking to anyone and sat in the corner of the room on an ipad. she gets up and goes “i guess i’ll leave now. i’m not needed here”. “no one will miss me” comments like that. all because my sister and my mom were talking to each other and i was talking here and there too while i was being medicated. i asked my bf if she was mad
or something and he’s like “nah she’s prob just tired” but i fucking knew she was being like this cuz ~no one was talking to her~ this is a pattern i’m noticing and started noticing more as of lately. 

fast forward to now and omg πŸ™„πŸ™„πŸ™„ we were getting the extra bassinet and swing out from my moms car and my moms like “maybe we can put the swing out here in living room so we can have one out here for her to be in” and his mom had to make a rude, passive aggressive remark about how she’s never out there and some other bs that offended my mom. my mom comes in and is like “the mom is mad” and i asked why. she told me what happened and i told my bf. bf was pissed off and said he’d have a talk with her cuz there was no reason for those remarks. so she says she feels like she’s not included with the baby and she wants to be included. she said she never gets to watch or hold the baby. i understand. but like? it’s only been 2 weeks… ’m still newly bonding with my not even 3 week old baby. i’m still recovering. more importantly this isn’t about her or her feelings and time. it’s about my baby and me. so fuck everything she’s bitching about. it’s my baby. if i don’t feel comfortable with his mom watching her or just flat out don’t want her to. that reason is valid enough. it’s MY baby. like???? why is she so immature??? this is a 74 year old fucking woman acting passive aggressive, and trying to manipulate the situation because she thinks she’s a victim around everyone. i can understand feeling a certain way about all of this but like to go about it the way she is as an adult is weird. 

so after all that my bf took sophia and let his mom hold her. she held her for like an hour and i was in the kitchen seething and on the verge of tears. it felt like i was forced to let go of my
 baby for someone to hold her. it wasn’t my choice it felt forced upon me because of her childish tantrum. i’ve come to find i just don’t like his mom. she’s nice and let my family live here for so long rent free and let me have parts of the kitchen to decorate and paint. but this victim woe is me absolute bullshit is not cool with me and i won’t bend over backwards to appease this woman. you can be nice to me. but doesn’t mean i like you. sometimes people just don’t like people and there isn’t always a rhyme or reason. there wasn’t really a real reason why i didn’t like her but now im seeing things that i don’t like about her. she’s a conspiracy believer, trump supporter and brainwashed by cults. so that in itself i never liked about her but i was like whatever she’s feeble minded and brainwashed. but this whole act is pushing me over the edge with her. 

when she comes to me and asks if her friend can see my baby when i didn’t want anyone around her yet. i am too nice and i cave in. she thanked me for letting me let her friend see her. here’s the thing, i don’t give a fuck about your friend or what she wanted. i don’t give a fuck about what you want either. i only give a fuck about my baby and what she wants and needs. seriously anyone else can fuck off. 

my bf comes to me and tells me his mom made more passive aggressive comments because my bf stayed home from work today again. he took off yesterday and today cuz we’ve been tired and he wanted to stay home with me and his baby. she has to ask him why he’s home again and he’s like i told you i was staying home a few days. she has to make rude comments about how there’s no communication and no communicates with her. see the pattern here? ~No OnE TaLkS tO MeEH~ stfu. sick of it. we as a family do our best, are we super out going with others? no. but that’s who we are and we’ve explained this multiple times. we even go out of our way (mostly my mom) to try to talk and include her. it’s never enough. like do you think my mom wants to chat it up at 5am when you wake up and shoot the shit? the living situation my mom is still in isn’t something that really whips her into a verbal frenzy every day. why can’t this woman understand that? she’s upset because i choose my own mom to watch my baby and not her. sorry not sorry? she’s my fucking mom and is the only one i feel comfortable letting watch sophia. it’s my choice. she doesn’t understand it and instead rather play victim and throw a tantrum until she gets her way. i don’t like that. cuz now she got to hold my baby after that. she will think she can continue to do that to get her way. idk if that’s cult mentality or just who she is maybe both. but how about she fucks off and sticks to her obsessive propaganda listening every fucking day and night. she goes to BED with that shit playing in the background just engulfing in the brainwashing while she sleeps it’s creepy as fuck. another reason i don’t want her watching my baby. i don’t want that shit around my baby. the brainwashing, trump obsession shit.  i’m so done. every time i hear her come by or walk to the kitchen i gets angry inside. i didn’t wanna hurt my bfs feelings but i let a lot of what im saying off on him telling him how i feel and he’s in agreement with me. she’s being stupid and immature about my baby. i’m not gonna play her games. i think there’s gonna be a point where i just go off and am mean to her. my brother said ill have to get stern. i’ll have to be straight and say no. “no you can’t hold my baby”. or just no. no no no. she can complain and make passive aggressive comments all she wants i’m not playing that manipulative bs game. i wish she didn’t live with us. 

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