RIP Bitzy

god that was rough. i’ve never put down an animal before, but my family has for our pets. it was the worst when the vet came in and was crying. then my bf was crying and i was trying to keep it in til i got home. i disassociated as much as possible from my emotions. I held her while they gave her the sedative and I let them take her when they gave her the final shot because they said she might squeak or twitch and I did not wanna see that. they brought her back after tho and we will be burying her this evening. it’s so hard and i never wanna do this again. but she’s better off asleep because her back was thin from not eating and her uterus was hanging out which had to hurt so much. i mean i just wanted her to be happy. she lived a good 5 years though and we’re gonna bury her with Mitzy so they can rest together. god it’s so hard especially putting down a pet 3 days before your birthday and 2 weeks before giving birth. its been stressful to say the least. :( I just hope Bitzy can rest without pain. my other guinea pig, Poppy was squeaking when I took Bitzy out which broke me even more because she's wondering where her friend is. Idk what to do if I can't find a place for Poppy. if I can't I will have to get another guinea pig cuz they can't be alone. so that's more sad stuff to tackle. I just want to do the right thing and I know how much my baby will take up time, I don't want to be unfair to my guinea pig. she needs to have lots of love and care too. so I was trying to find  sanctuary for her to be with other pigs. :( giving her away tho will be devastating in itself ugh

                                  i love you Bitzy <3