busy

going to be helluva busy month. they want me to now come in every week for the last 3 weeks of my pregnancy for ultrasounds. since i’m in the final last few weeks they wanna keep checking on her growth. so now i have 3 appointments every week for the remaining 3 weeks. gonna be tiring but im almost done with all of these appts and gestational diabetes shit daily. i am so confused as to why they even bother with the prenatal appts when the ultrasound and NST are most informative. when i go to the prenatal appts all i do is talk to them for 20 mins about the same info i get out of the OB. we got the bassinet together and i need some sheets for it and set it up cute and comfy for her arrival 

the ugly curtains still need to go but they’re just there for now til we get new, white ones i want. there was a hurricane shutter on the window for years on it and finally i asked him to take it down to open up the window for the baby to get light. we got rid of all the shitty furniture that was over there. after all the crying and fighting over wanting to change the area up it only took me having a baby for him to listen to me and change it up. he says how great and roomy it is now over there and all i gotta say is “toldja!” 

it’s getting real now. she’s almost here and my life will be changed for the rest of my life. taking care of my daughter for the rest of my life, doing everything for her to grow into a good, caring & smart person. it’s no longer only about me. i finally have a purpose in life