no trip this weekend

can’t sleep as usual. was waking every night at 3am-ish. not it’s moved to 4am-ish. feels like i am having anxiety attacks. shortness of breath like im not breathing enough. i think my lungs are just crowded… idk but its so annoying. i’m really tired but can’t fall asleep, can’t get get comfortable no matter what. 

so no trip to Mum’s cuz my brother’s flu symptoms got worse. so we decided to go next Saturday ugh. keep putting it off, feels like it’ll never happen lol. i texted her and she was understanding of course. we made dinner last night and my brother didn’t even stick around to eat cuz he fell so sick.  my mom seems better but still coughing. my cough isn’t as bad as it was for like 3 weeks. i wasn’t even sick like them it was just this cough that was there. so since tomorrow is no trip, my bf and i are gonna walk around downtown and look at christmas lights and to just walk around and get out in general. 

tried to get my thank you cards printed yesterday but the man at Office Depot was no help. says they don’t print stuff for people anymore? only way to do it is to upload it to the website and blah blah. well we ran into this problem last night with the baby shower invitations, but the girl just had us email her and she printed them up for us, gave us a low price and extras. like this old man just sucked. so we left and called around and why is everyone’s printers down at the same time?? we called a couple places and they all said the same thing. so we called an independent company and she was really nice, told us she can absolutely print our cards up but we’ll have to pick them up next week. so i emailed the templates and she’s gonna get back to us with a quote and stuff. might not be as cheap as when we got the invitations but that was just lucky. 

got christmas tree finally. i have been waiting for christmas tree and since we aren’t going in our trip, we got our tree to decorate tonight. 

my bf keeps commenting how i look so normal with certain clothes on or from the back. like i look small, not pregnant whatsoever. but then i turn or have the right clothes on and my stomach is out. i also had fishnets on and when i took my clothes off i told him my stomach looked like a holiday ham or turkey all wrapped in the wiring. 😭 

normal looking

then bam. baby in stomach 

she’s been kicking me a lot and sometimes it’s weird. feels really weird and her limbs can be felt in full force. kinda creepy sometimes but kinda fun. i played music today in the car while i was waiting on my bf to come back from the guitar shop and she was dancing ^-^