exhausted

so no good sleep for me for weeks. hard to sleep because of the side effects of 3rd trimester. i hate it so much and it’s really been taking a toll on me. i’m getting more depressed and irritable. i was so exhausted Friday night that i was hoping to sleep well. i didn’t. was restless and antsy all night and had to be on the road to Sarasota at 8:30am. so no good sleep, got up and got ready. my blood sugars were bad at breakfast and dinner because we were on the road and i didn’t have a choice in healthy options. i’m bothered by that. my lunch numbers were good. we got to Mums and chatted and caught up. she gave me so many cute clothes and and the bassinet, swing and mini portable bassinet she got from her friends kid’s kids who outgrew them. so i’ll have spare one for my moms new house. we went out to lunch at this place called Pier 22 i think. i ordered zucchini pasta and some calamari. i thought the calamari might spike my sugars cuz its breaded and fried but my numbers were good at lunch. being at that restaurant is the first time ive gotten stared at since pregnant. these women near our table were taking many looks at me while sipping on their wine. we went back to Mums and talked some more. my bf and her got along great and i knew they would cuz my bf is real. he has stories to tell and since they’re both from Jensen and Stuart they had all kinds of shit to talk about. 

it made me laugh cuz they were talking about old sheriffs in Martin County and she said she really liked this one and she couldn’t remember the name of him but expressed she really liked him. so my bf starts talking about how he was a cop that grew pot and was heavy into the distribution of it. he said he went to high school and the sons were always selling it at school and my grandma be like 😧 she was quickly like what all this time i thought…. he was telling her all the backstory and the inside info. it was really funny. the ride home was just as bad as the trip up. i tried staying awake for my brother who was driving us. we were so tired and my eyes kept falling. but i forced so hard to stay up to make sure he’s ok driving etc. he said it got tough too because he didn’t get a lot of sleep either. my bf got on my damn nerves tho on the way back. he and Mum had some cocktails at the house so he was drink acting too silly and it was annoying. like i felt like i was in the car with a boy. i got so irritated and my brother was getting irritated too. like when he gets drunk sometimes he plays too much and it’s like okay enough. it’s worse when you’re sober and dealing with drunk people. luckily he fell asleep for a good while. still woke up and annoying me. we got Arby’s and my sugar spike was bad of course. it was 131 but the breakfast one was fucking high as hell it was 157 i think or 147 something. so i wrote “roadtrip” next to the numbers so the OB knows. 

fasting number wasn’t good either this morning and neither was my breakfast one. so i’m in a bad mood over it. i finally took naps tho today and i feel less tired and got some sleep in. i ate lunch and waiting to check the blood sugar at 3:46. tonight we’re having a healthy dinner. salmon, red mashed potatoes and asparagus. then his mom is making some New Year dinner she makes every year. i gotta kinda annoyed when his mom was talking about crab legs and shrimp for it tomorrow and my bf said “kaley can’t have those things” and she goes “it’d be healthy for you but anyway”. um idk if im overly sensitive for being annoyed by that comment but like?? i’m pregnant and am not supposed to eat raw seafood. thats a risk for my babies health and i’ve been doing everything i can to make sure im doing, eating and exercising the best ways i can to keep her healthy in there. idk if it’s cuz she’s not been pregnant and doesn’t know the safety precautions for preg women bc my bf was adopted by her. or if it’s an age thing. but i took offense to it. i feel a better response would have been “oh im sorry okay” or nothing at all. 🙄 maybe im being too sensitive. i was so tired and have been from the lack of sleep and pregnancy pains. so she should be here at around 4 more weeks. says 5 on the app cuz that’s calculating 40 weeks but i’ll prob be induced at 39. next weekend we’re preparing her arrival and setting up her bassinet, swing and car seat.