Christmas

had a pretty relaxed Christmas. my mom was working unfortunately so we wanted to wait for her before anyone opened gifts and obviously to eat Christmas dinner. our tree, although skinny since that’s all there really was this year at Home Depot, we did our best with it and once the presents kept getting wrapped daily and put under it, it filled it up and looked better. 

it’s funny i never thought id be one to ask for kitchen supplies for christmas but becoming pregnant and diagnosed during with “pregnancy diabetes” it caused me to make my own dinners that follow the diet. so if i have to cook which i do not care for, id want really cute items to cook with. so i asked for (been asking for actually a long time now) these kawaii, pink cat knife set. the handles are cat paws 🥺 i can’t. so his mom got me those, he got me pink kitchen utensils that come in a pink holder which i also wanted to match up. and the big one i wanted was a Keurig. unfortunately there were no pink but they had a sea foam green which matches the kitchen. so he bought me my coffee machine and now we be making coffees all the time again. at home when we use to love at the old house id make coffees with our old one multiple times daily and i missed that. saves money too cuz Dunkin every morning is costly. i still wanna set up a cute little coffee area in the kitchen so thats my next project. bfs next project is to clear out some guitars out of the room (thank God) and clean up to put the bassinet together to make an area for Sophia when she arrives. which is soon as fuck. ideally 5-6 more weeks and she’s here already so i want to start on that early this month. 

my bf got me these boots i wanted from Dolls Kill and man looking at them you wouldn’t think it would add like 4-5 inches of height but when i put them on… i look tall af lmao. my sister is like 5’6-5’7 and she looks looks like an amazon woman. they’re so cute tho. 

my birthday is coming up so i changed my wishlist from kaley christmas 2023 to kaley bday 2024. oh yea and there’s NY. ☹️ can’t party it up this year but damn time goes by. as said before, Sophia will be here prob end of Jan (still hoping Feb) but they might want me to have her early bc i am on insulin and have GD. or she just might be ready to greet the world sooner. you never know. i do know it’s getting cramped in there for her because she moves around like crazy and sometimes violently. 

symptoms so far i’d say are:

•painful sciatica.  it’s always hurt but not this bad. 

•lower back pain is awful. 

•emotional for no reason. i was wrapping presents alone, not thinking anything sad, but started to ugly cry out of no where while wrapping. felt like some bit in a comedy romance. just couldn’t hold it back and sobbed. 

•false contractions that make my stomach tighten and it hurts and is super uncomfortable. 

•harder to walk now so i am not too keen on my walks but i force them after dinner (at least)

•i notice my voice has lowered since 2nd and 3rd trimester. and gives out like im sick or something. 

•belly button is really starting to stick out now which disturbs me. 

•the mother of all… i can’t breathe well. hard to sleep every night feeling like i am panicking cuz i can’t breathe. my lungs are super crowded now and it’s miserable. that’s my number 1 thing i hate the most and can’t wait i fix. 

i haven’t had any feet or ankle swelling like a lot of pregnant women go thru. might be my strict diet helping control that or maybe it’ll come closer to the very end, idk. but i’m glad.