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November 6, 2023

baby shower decorations

bf came home from work with a big bag and it was full of my baby shower decorations that Paige bought. so pretty everything matches the invitations. so many hanging flowers. i asked her how much she spent so we can give her money toward what she purchased. so nice 😊 

blood sugar level this morning was shocking way lower than it has been so far. score of 98. after eating a salad for dinner (early) & 2 boiled eggs 2 hours later for a snack plus a 10 min walk. so i tried this method again tonight and ate a salad from Chick Fil A (early again) and at 9:12 i check the blood sugar and eat a snack so prob 2 boiled eggs. see what happens in the morning tests. was a little disappointed this morning after i tested it after breakfast and it was 120. tested it again on my forearm and it said 109. i think the fingertip is the most accurate unfortunately. it hurts and the forearm doesn’t feel like anything 😭 so it might have been higher from adding extra granola onto my greek yogurt parfait this morning. idk. 120 isn’t bad but it’s right on the dot if not needing to be any higher. doctor never called but i think it’s because the midwife isn’t in til Tues. i’m thinking about just making the stupid ass appt with the stupid dietitian this week and just going. i don’t want to but i feel like if i do i don’t feel worry that the drs will hound me for not going. i’ll just make an appt this week, go to that and if the dr office calls back tomorrow about my appt i wanted to make… ill either accept it and go if they can get me in by Wed or ill tell them to just forget it & i’ll go to my appt next Tuesday. then ill have already seen the dietitian and they can converse. idk. my mom is worried im not eating enough. 

i knew id get obsessed over the numbers and obsess over getting them as low as possible and worrying about scores such as 120. she thinks i might not be eating enough cuz of my restriction on sugars to keep it so low. but i literally eat 3 meals a day and 3 snacks. so 6 times a day im eating and walking 10 mins after at least 2 meals. i read that pregnant with GD should have around 175g carbs and under a day. i think today i had (estimated) 100 or under grams of carbs today. i guess the dietitian can let me know. it’s just i hear so much about dietitians being wrong on what to do because it doesn’t always work for the same person. it’s like a trial and error thing. so i just don’t want to go. maybe i should not make the dietician appt yet until they asked at my next appt. i’ll just say i had to cancel before cuz i was busy but i plan on rescheduling idkkkk. stressing out about it tho. 

i am also randomly emotional. i had to drop bf off at work cuz his car battery was dead. on the way back home i was listening to dance gavin dance and i started to sob. today i saw a 26 week old premature baby crying in the nicu on tiktok and i started crying. ive been looking up what a baby looks like out of the womb at the week im at and now they’re showing up in my fyp making me emotional. 

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