29 weeks

i’ve started to get more baby shower gifts in the mail. today i received a baby swing and today we have to pick up a car seat/baby carrier from Target that Mum got me from my registry. she said there was an issue trying to ship it here for some reason. i pick up my insulin tomorrow to start insulin shots before bed. fun…

i still have this cough and it’s still hard to talk sometimes without feeling like coughing. i’m not sick though so idk why this is still happening over 2 weeks later. i started taking cough medicine safe for pregnancy. it helps a little. this morning my belly hurt so bad. if i lay on one side during sleep and try to switch sides it hurts so bad. also had some ligament pains after intimacy last night. so maybe i stretched it too much idk but it feels like muscle cramps all over my stomach. she isn’t moving too much yet today. she was super violent yesterday morning. the kicked me or punched me like a boxer multiple times in a row and i was kinda scared for a moment. like it was startling and more so than usual. i think about 30 weeks the movements start to get very known. is she a boxer or is she a dancer? 

got more incense. tried gathering more fall & winter scents. we had points from the store so we got free 10 more. walking out with 20. we went to pick up stuff for a couple dinners this week & while at the store a lady walked up to me & said “you look very beautiful & with the baby you look even more beautiful”. very nice of her to say. even though compliments make me nervous, it does lift me up a bit. during this pregnancy & even before i was feeling super low about how i look. very negative, very zero confidence. so pregnancy bringing on so much ugly things like breaking out, stomach roundness & milk leaks i feel gross. the slack on putting myself together & just not feeling happy enough to put on makeup. then there’s jealousy of other pretty women. feeling ugly in comparison. compliments coming from strangers who don’t have to say anything at all but do means a lot. bf, family etc should mean more than things a stranger says but strangers don’t have to go up to you and out of their way to say nice things. which makes me feel like what they say is true. idk if that’s how i should be thinking but it’s a way to look at it. that being said i do try to put some effort sometimes