blood pressure check 👍🏼

went to my appointment and my blood pressure check was normal. first time at the dr since i’ve been pregnant. i wonder if those low dose aspirins are working then. i still keep logging it morning and night every day. it’s been good during those times too. she told me to keep logging it and bring it back in next appointment (in 2 weeks). nurse showed me how to use the blood sugar monitor. she said before i eat in the morning, then 2 hours after i eat each meal. so i tried it there and i was scared at first cuz i don’t like my fingertip pricked but i did it and it was more startling than anything. something that will take getting use to for sure. my blood sugar was 112 so that was good. we got Wawa breakfast and i ordered a breakfast bowl with scrambled eggs, sausage, spinach, tomatoes, caramelized onions & chipotle and hot sauce. it was pretty healthy choice. so in 2 hours ill check the blood sugar again. seems this is gonna have to be a test to see what triggers my blood sugar. i didn’t get an iced latte this morning cuz ive been having anxiety feeling like an anxiety attack at night and this morning. so i cut the caffeine out for a lil bit. 

i think ive just been stressed with these new lifestyle changes that have just been sprung onto me so quickly. having been diagnosed with gestational diabetes and having to check blood sugar and go in a strict diet during pregnancy and possibly the rest of my life if i end up with diabetes in the future. says a high percentage of women who develop GD during pregnancy will have it regularly in the future. all cuz of how the placenta developed 😒 so that and having the meet with a nutritionist soon as i make appointment, more specialized OBs for my high risk pregnancy having to prob do more tests. just a lot going on for me that i am not use to. then the baby coming is obviously a complete life changing experience. it’s just all coming on too fast and im stressing. 

ugh i wish i wasn’t the way i am with socializing and stuff but my friend from school messaged me in a group message with my other 2 school friends asking about getting together for lunch sometime soon. whenever i get messages i tend to leave them unread a lot cuz i don’t like the feeling of obligation to reply. i don’t want to socialize even though it’d be great for me to do. catching up with old school friends would be a positive thing. i’m just so… not social. i think one of my other friends is the same way in the group chat. years ago she started to become distant and not wanting to hang out cuz of her reasons which i think i know i don’t wanna say. but it’s all the same for me it’s just… not wanting to do anything lol. so i messaged back saying ive been busy with pregnancy but it does sound nice lol which isn’t a lie. things are about to get really busy. between these appointments and the baby shower planning it’s a lot at once.