fuck everything

so much for being seen. i got up early, we drove 45 mins to the place. then they told me i can’t be seen because 1) their online appt booking page isn’t up to date……. 2) they aren’t taking anymore medicaid patients (just like the first place said) & 3) i’m “too far along”. she asked me when my last period was. i said April 30. she’s like “April 30th?!” she said they don’t take first time patients that are at 14 weeks. which is odd considering most don’t go to their first appts til 11-14 wks according to google. also i’m actually 13 weeks but i didn’t say anything. so she said they won’t accept me. wtf? like i said i’ve never heard of that. she just kept talking and at that point i tuned her out and was thinking why bother telling me any useless info i just wanna leave. so she said sorry and my mom stormed out and said let’s go…. she took time off work to take me 45 mins away for them to not accept me and to not even help us out. extremely disappointing. 

so we called another place and the lady on the phone said she’d get back with us after discussing it with the doctors. so she called back an hour later but said they can’t take me either cuz they are all booked up in Feb (when i’m due). but she gave us some place else to call. she did way more than the other place did for us. so i guess we’ll call that place. if they won’t accept me idk what else to do. go to the hospital ER? say something is wrong just to get in? im worried and lost. i’m so depressed. i wish i had regular insurance i feel this wouldn’t be such a problem.