first prenatal appointment

so i met with the midwife and she was basically a normal nurse. i guess midwives aren’t known like they use to be. some might be… weird holistic ones that do at home births but this one was no different than a nurse. but as i suspected… since i am a high risk pregnancy, she said due to age (didn’t mention much about my pcos) that i have to have an ultrasound appt at a doctor doctor. so i’m scheduled in 4 weeks to get an ultrasound from a main doctor and 4 weeks cuz they wanna wait til the baby develops more to check it for abnormalities, check organs and such. sucks i didn’t get an ultrasound today :( but i did get to hear the heartbeat. 140 bpm she said that’s a good heartbeat. so it’s still alive i’m so glad cuz i was worried. my sister and mom were there too and got to listen to it. my sister recorded some of it. i really wanted that ultrasound tho. 

i had to get a pap ugh. but i got it over with and won’t be due for another for 2 years. after the appt i set a new appt to be seen in 4 weeks when the midwife wants me back  September 19 @ 11am. then i got a call while my sister and i were on our way for lunch at Chick Fil A. it was apparently to set up the ultrasound appt with a main doctor. they asked me what time either 8am or 11am and i looked at my sister since she wants to be there and she panicked and said 8am 😫 so fucking early. but i guess that works if i have another appt at 11am same

day. i was confused cuz i swearrrrr i heard her say to get the ultrasound appointment in 2 weeks. cuz i remember thinking in my head “that’s not that bad of a wait” but they made the appt for 4 weeks, same day as 4 week midwife appt. odd idk. also the referral was for a lady doctor but it scheduled me with a male doctor 😒 might call back to make sure it was supposed to be 4 weeks. idk. ?

after we left doctor i went ahead and did the blood work the midwife requested. including NIPT test that checks for down syndrome and gender! they took 10 fucking viles of my blood. another concern im bothered by is the question to opt in or out for Qnatal. i didn’t understand at the time what  the person collecting my blood meant by that and apparently for some reason she didn’t know either. she said she didn’t wanna choose the wrong one. i said i definitely wanna know gender. she chose “not given”. so now idk how i’ll get my results?? i wanna know the gender but if she chose not given, now what? probably should have picked opt in. would make sense but i didn’t know and shouldnt she have known? idk now. i wanted to get my gender results in an envelope so my bf and family could all open it together. now idk how i’ll get them or will they give me them at all? i signed up for the websites.  (my chart) gives me lab results and signed up for the blood work place to get results. i read people saying the gender results showed up in their charts online. but idkkkk. might have to call and say how i wanna find out. it’s bothering me though. the results should be back in 1-2 weeks and at mostttt 3. so i could have my babies gender before my ultrasound in 4 weeks (19 weeks). that is if the results show up in my charts. 

also i weighed 3 lbs more. i gained 3 lbs since my last weigh at the medicaid place. which is good and steady. i’m suppose to gain 1 or 2 lbs per week. so i’ve gained 1 a week which is healthy i believe. i hope the results come back negative for any down syndrome or any genetic issues. i can’t remember everything they’re checking for. 

baby names are picked out: 

girl: Sophia (a best friend of mine since 3rd grade)

boy: Micah (my bf actually agreed on that one) 

middles names are up for debate but i wanted Josephine for girl and Joseph for boy due to bf name being Joseph. 

i want the results so bad im gonna be checking daily obsessively. i hope it’s a girl but i’ll be happy with either. i may be gender disappointed at first i worry but i will be happy either way 💜  i looked up when an anatomy scan is done says between 18-20 weeks. so 4 weeks makes sense :( hate waiting