ITS A GIRL🎀

got results back tonight and thinking it wasn’t the Qnatal results but just the other blood test results. i kept scrolling and noticed “trisomy” and i knew that word from so much google for other people’s results. so there’s no down syndrome or any abnormality and it’s a girl!!!!!!!! i’m so excited i jumped for joy  told my mom and texted my sister she freaked out  

16 weeks

Alice Cooper / Rob Zombie

so we all (sister, Zack, bf & mom) road together in my moms car down to West Palm for the concert. as i was walking up to have my bag checked the security said i can’t take my bag in. i asked why and she said cuz it was too big and didn’t meet the size requirement 🙄🙄 we had to walk alllll the way back to the car to put it back. we met up with Paulseidon cuz he was working over in the VIP section where another friend of ours Jeff was playing music for that section and he gave us wristbands. so we could come and go in the VIP area to get drinks, sit and chill and use the bathroom with AC instead of the gross main fairgrounds bathrooms. my sister said the Ac wasn’t that good in the bathroom but i think it beats waiting in long lines of people. Paulseidon ordered me a virgin drink. idk what it was but it was pretty good. i didn’t drink all of it because i didn’t wanna have to keep going to the bathroom. 

we bought concert shirts and omg the prices have gone so high for merch. 50.00 for a t-shirt now. it use to be like 30 bucks which was high still but 50? still got one each though. went over to our seats and sat there for Ministry. i like a song or 2 by them but man i had felt super down. i just had anxiety and felt overheated. i calmed down a bit waiting for Alice Cooper but midway through that my feet were going numb and the heat was out of this world. at one point i thought i was going to panic and need to leave the area because i was so hot. he didn’t do a lot of the stuff he’s done at concerts but he did get his head chopped off and brought out the snake. he hangs himself and does other crazy stuff usually but i’m assuming he didn’t because the main act was Rob Zombie. Alice Cooper still awesome as fuck at 76. i didn’t take many pictures, in fact i just took 1 cuz i was so fucking overheated. but i got a cool one of the sign before it dropped. my sister got tons i was gonna get from her but i’m sick of waiting so i’m posting now. 

towards the end of Alice Cooper’s set a breeze blew in and i felt better. i was doing okay then. sat down and waited for Rob Zombie. i was pretty beat at that point but i know my sisters a huge fan so we stayed. i like Rob Zombie as a person. i think him and his wife are cool people and i like his movies but i’m not big on the music tbh. he put on a cool show though but if you hate lots of flashing lights and crazy visuals then you’d hate it. my sister even was tapping out after like 4 songs. so we dipped out early and when we got to the car it felt so good to put AC on and sit down omg. we went to Wawa and got food then went home to pass out. 

i’m glad i opted out of the NOFX show. no more huge concerts in Florida during the summer that are outside. i absolutely cannot. idk how i ever did any Warped Tours cuz fuck it was hot and hard to handle. my bf is having a reunion show with his old band and they’re playing with some punk band i haven’t heard of but they’ve been around called Guttermouth. i’ll be going to that because it won’t be a huge amphitheater so it won’t be long walks, thousands of people etc. i randomly googled Guttermouth and was immediately saying omg over and over. i saw the drummer for them is Adam The Woo. he was a past member of the band and i was like holy shit that’s so random. i use to watch Adam The Woo religiously back in the day on youtube. he use to film and go to abandoned places and do the whole road trip around the US thing. i followed his daily vlogs and stuff for a long while til i wasn’t interested anymore. he stopped doing that cool stuff and just became a Disney adult vlogging there constantly and i am not into that shit at all. that would have been crazy tho if he was still on the band i’d have fan-girled. 

my moms so random she text me saying she bought 4 tickets to Alice Cooper & Rob Zombie for this Sunday. she said she got them free from her veterans thing. so i’m going, probably my sister. i asked my bf if he wants go but he said maybe cuz he works Sunday. he is taking off the week of his bday next month so doesn’t wanna take off too much. 

first prenatal appointment

so i met with the midwife and she was basically a normal nurse. i guess midwives aren’t known like they use to be. some might be… weird holistic ones that do at home births but this one was no different than a nurse. but as i suspected… since i am a high risk pregnancy, she said due to age (didn’t mention much about my pcos) that i have to have an ultrasound appt at a doctor doctor. so i’m scheduled in 4 weeks to get an ultrasound from a main doctor and 4 weeks cuz they wanna wait til the baby develops more to check it for abnormalities, check organs and such. sucks i didn’t get an ultrasound today :( but i did get to hear the heartbeat. 140 bpm she said that’s a good heartbeat. so it’s still alive i’m so glad cuz i was worried. my sister and mom were there too and got to listen to it. my sister recorded some of it. i really wanted that ultrasound tho. 

i had to get a pap ugh. but i got it over with and won’t be due for another for 2 years. after the appt i set a new appt to be seen in 4 weeks when the midwife wants me back  September 19 @ 11am. then i got a call while my sister and i were on our way for lunch at Chick Fil A. it was apparently to set up the ultrasound appt with a main doctor. they asked me what time either 8am or 11am and i looked at my sister since she wants to be there and she panicked and said 8am 😫 so fucking early. but i guess that works if i have another appt at 11am same

day. i was confused cuz i swearrrrr i heard her say to get the ultrasound appointment in 2 weeks. cuz i remember thinking in my head “that’s not that bad of a wait” but they made the appt for 4 weeks, same day as 4 week midwife appt. odd idk. also the referral was for a lady doctor but it scheduled me with a male doctor 😒 might call back to make sure it was supposed to be 4 weeks. idk. ?

after we left doctor i went ahead and did the blood work the midwife requested. including NIPT test that checks for down syndrome and gender! they took 10 fucking viles of my blood. another concern im bothered by is the question to opt in or out for Qnatal. i didn’t understand at the time what  the person collecting my blood meant by that and apparently for some reason she didn’t know either. she said she didn’t wanna choose the wrong one. i said i definitely wanna know gender. she chose “not given”. so now idk how i’ll get my results?? i wanna know the gender but if she chose not given, now what? probably should have picked opt in. would make sense but i didn’t know and shouldnt she have known? idk now. i wanted to get my gender results in an envelope so my bf and family could all open it together. now idk how i’ll get them or will they give me them at all? i signed up for the websites.  (my chart) gives me lab results and signed up for the blood work place to get results. i read people saying the gender results showed up in their charts online. but idkkkk. might have to call and say how i wanna find out. it’s bothering me though. the results should be back in 1-2 weeks and at mostttt 3. so i could have my babies gender before my ultrasound in 4 weeks (19 weeks). that is if the results show up in my charts. 

also i weighed 3 lbs more. i gained 3 lbs since my last weigh at the medicaid place. which is good and steady. i’m suppose to gain 1 or 2 lbs per week. so i’ve gained 1 a week which is healthy i believe. i hope the results come back negative for any down syndrome or any genetic issues. i can’t remember everything they’re checking for. 

baby names are picked out: 

girl: Sophia (a best friend of mine since 3rd grade)

boy: Micah (my bf actually agreed on that one) 

middles names are up for debate but i wanted Josephine for girl and Joseph for boy due to bf name being Joseph. 

i want the results so bad im gonna be checking daily obsessively. i hope it’s a girl but i’ll be happy with either. i may be gender disappointed at first i worry but i will be happy either way 💜  i looked up when an anatomy scan is done says between 18-20 weeks. so 4 weeks makes sense :( hate waiting

15 weeks

first prenatal appt tomorrow. i’m both excited and nervous. excited to get answers & hopefully see my baby and nervous bc i don’t know what to expect. i hope everything is okay 🤞🏼🍀

ac broken in the house still since Thursday. luckily the rooms have ac units in windows since they never got cold anyways. but cooking in the kitchen in brutal. the guy came to look at it and said it needs a fan or something. so hot til tomorrow i guess. zack is supposed to go to bfs work to help fix broken ac in his work friends car but my sister has the ac pump in her car. she’s at work so hopefully he won’t mind stopping by her work to get it. idk. just tired of relaying messages back and forth to my sister and bf about her bf. my bf should just text her bf. or he can text my sister. i’m so sick of hearing about ac issues. 

throat hurt this morning still. so i wanna sleep more but my phone keeps going off cuz of having to relay messages. 

emotional night

went to see friend Johnnie play at Conchy Joes and i was in a bad mood a bit because i am in the mode where i hate that i can’t have fun and have to struggle with social anxiety around friends without a crutch. so we sat at the bar to order happy hour menu items. i was mad inside i had to order water with lemon and not get alcohol like the rest to let loose. i ordered some steamed mussels and our friend Bamonte comes up behind us and hugs us. i’m thinking oh great. Mr fun time is here and i can’t even have fun. so i’m even more bummed and angry inside. he kept trying to get us to go out on the deck where Johnnie was playing and i didn’t want to and was so mad about it. thinking i’ll be stuck out there around friends having fun while i’m suffering thru social anxiety. but things did turn around and i became less angry. i still had social anxiety but i was not so mad anymore. he asked us what we wanted and when i asked for a virgin daquiri my bf just said “we’re trying to have a family here” and he’s like “wait… is there a little Dyer in there” and i said yes and he cheered me on and gave me high fives. so he brought me my virgin daquiri and it was fancy cuz it has whipped cream on it. which i didn’t even think was a thing. it was really good and was like a little dessert. he said “i made sure to put extra alcohol in there” lol. after Johnnie was done playing we greeted him and told him i was pregnant too. he was lit up and happy. said how exciting this is and said if i ever need anything he’d do it and said he’ll get a second job lol. he’s so kind honestly. he was super happy about it. it felt good to tell people because i hate feeling off and it being a little noticeable considering i wear my heart on my sleeve. so then knowing makes me feel like i don’t need explaining. it started raining so we left quickly to avoid harsh rains. 

came home and i fed my guinea pigs and stuff. then we went out again to see Johnnies brother Ben play at Thirsty Turtle. our wait time was 40 mins. but i figured we waited so long night as well keep waiting. we finally get seated and my anxiety was sadly so bad i didn’t wanna get up in front of people to go to the bathroom so i held it. i ordered conch chowder and we shared a fried mushrooms appetizer and fuck i was full. our main dishes didn’t even come out yet and we were already so full. i i ordered coconut shrimp with rice pilaf and coleslaw like i said i would. 

only ate 2 shrimp and boxed rest up. so many friends came up and talked to us and asked about smoking a joint and stuff. which stuff like that just makes me hate being pregnant again. where i complained before about not being able do what i want, have fun when i want without worry. but i obviously can’t do that so i end up resentful. my mood started to drop when party supplies were being mentioned lightly cuz it keeps reminding me. 

we have a heartfelt conversation about it. i explained to him i hate this and it sucks for me cuz i never truly feel comfortable as just me. i’m super self conscious and that high social anxiety that keeps me from being me out without a crutch sucks. it’s hard. so him being freely able to do whatever bugs me. so i prefer him to cool it with everything. he said he understands and he’d rather be with me than out partying with people. conversation good ✔️ well as we’re leaving Mr party fun time Bamonte shows up and i again feel sad i can’t hang out with everyone who is showing up. like 5 friends were all there and we have to leave cuz i’m pregnant and can’t deal with social settings. just makes me feel bad. he again said he’d rather be with me and we planned to watch a movie when we got back…

weird bump thing

i was laying down last night and was feeling around my stomach like pressing and feeling. i noticed a bump inside? like size of a nickel or something. it hurt when i pressed a bit but when i woke up and felt there again it didn’t hurt but it was still there?? what is it. i googled it and it says it could be a cyst. women get them during pregnancy and it’s usually no cause for concern. and i was prone to them anyway cuz of pcos. then i read it could be some hernia thing but that wouldn’t happen til later in the 3rd trimester and it doesn’t hurt like that would. idk but i’m kinda freaked out. i pressed around again and felt it mostly when standing up. i made my bf and sister feel it and they don’t feel it. but it’s obviously there i feel it myself. then i thought maybe it’s just my insides since they’re moving around as the womb gets bigger. but i don’t think so. it’s on my left mid low side. idk but it bothers me. i’m going to tell this to my appt. i just need to see if my baby is okay. i need confirmation. i need answers. counting down the days til Tues. :(

we made enchiladas tonight and i tried telling my bf they require corn not flour tortillas. so i ended up not liking the dish we made for me. we made beef enchiladas for my family and spinach ones for me. but due to the flour tortillas it made it so mushy. i hated it and it made him sad lol like i am the one who made them you just heated them. why you offended. he got me taco bell since i didn’t like it. i also drew faces on these green onion stems

everyone be pregnant

i got an invite for J’s baby shower. my bf and i have been wondering why they weren’t telling people since we heard about it. then for my stylist to spill the tea and tell me how far along she was and with a girl. we just thought it was odd they were so secretive about it. to the point where stylist told me she hadn’t even told Megs yet. her best friend… stylist even was thinking it was weird. maybe they were worried cuz they didn’t get to get married yet. they cancelled the wedding due to this obvious reason. maybe her family is weird about that idk. anyways the baby shower is Sept 23. i’ll be almost 20 weeks by then. on the invite it says “champagne and food” or something like that so i was talking to my brother about how funny it would be to show up and when they offer champagne i reply “oh no thanks. i’m pregnant”. that being how i spill my secret. but anyway i would have announced it by then. so weird because everyone is pregnant. my friend Ashley was the first i heard, then J, then 2 others. what’s going on?!

i feel so bad because i ate so many treats and junk food. after i said i wanted to eat better in this trimester. cravings are wild everything i ate: spaghetti o’s for breakfast, the last bit of my gelato for lunch, less than half my moms left over cake from the fresh market, a roast beef wrap from Publix for dinner, cheddar cheese and pepperoncinis, a small chocolate milkshake from Sonic and some cheese tots. helppp. i cannot stop eating bad foods. i just crave and crave junk food. 

tomorrow i want to just eat salads. i need to make myself. 😩

14 weeks / second trimester

i’m officially in my second trimester. 

symptoms; 1) headaches i seem to have daily on and off throughout the day. 2) sore boobs still and they are huge now, gross but some milk leaks a tiny bit. it’s called colostrum and happens sometimes to some women. it grossed me out but idk it until i see remnants. 3) bloating is still going on and my cravings don’t help. craving sweet stuff like ice cream, cakes & pies. tangy flavored stuff like pickles, pepperoncinis, & salt & vinegar chips. 

sunset leaving store

pool day and lots of food

went to Cracker Barrel for lunch randomly. i got grilled chicken tenders & mash potatoes with coleslaw. not particularly on my diet but 🤷🏼‍♀️ on the way out i found a Hello Kitty plushie i asked my bf to get me. every time we end up at Cracker Barrel he always buys me a prize from the gift shop. he wasn’t about to spend 20 bucks on a plush toy so he said if it was probably expensive i can’t get it. but i was in luck, it was 10.99. the cashier said people have been asking for them and she said there wasn’t anymore. she said she didn’t even know there was 1 more. i got last one ^u^. 

went to the dreaded Walmart to get a cheap raft and cheap it was. it’s like 10 inches wide & 5’6. got back and got ready for pool day. bf pumped the cheapo raft and i could barely get on it without tipping over. the width was so small. 

we went out to dinner at Shuckers which is on the beach. i got a virgin bloody mary drink since i can’t have alcohol and it was so good. i got steamed mussels and conch soup. 

we just tried to watch the shootings stars that are supposed to be out tonight. i think i saw one for a split second but it was faint. my bf saw a super fast one. i would have stayed longer but afraid of mosquitoes 

appt finally

my bf called almost every obgyn/hospital on the list of medicaid acceptance places? idk how to word that. so we got someone that asked for my records and to fax them. who uses fax anymore? so instead of fucking around we just went into the hospital and set up the appointment there. they accepted my medicaid and didn’t even ask for any records. i just told them i’ve had 2 ultrasound scans but no dr. they made my appointment for August 22nd @ 11am. then she was like “your midwife will meet with you then”. i’m like uhhh midwife? does it have to be a midwife? she said if you wanna be seen sooner than yea. she basically explained to me i see a midwife and if i have any complications they transfer me to a dr. i just didn’t want any weird midwife bullshit. they’re so weird from what i’ve gathered. my bf said his kids mom went to a weird one and i’ve seen that episode of King Of The Hill (RIP Dale btw). but from what it sounds like these hospital midwives are nurses. not just some random hippy dippy lady against medicine. even on the card of the lady i took it says obgyn. so we’ll see what happens when i go. i’m just glad to have a fucking appointment. i’ll be 15 weeks + 1 day when i go. in my second trimester. i hope everything goes well and works out so much. tired of the stress and worry. i’ll finally get answers 

fuck everything

so much for being seen. i got up early, we drove 45 mins to the place. then they told me i can’t be seen because 1) their online appt booking page isn’t up to date……. 2) they aren’t taking anymore medicaid patients (just like the first place said) & 3) i’m “too far along”. she asked me when my last period was. i said April 30. she’s like “April 30th?!” she said they don’t take first time patients that are at 14 weeks. which is odd considering most don’t go to their first appts til 11-14 wks according to google. also i’m actually 13 weeks but i didn’t say anything. so she said they won’t accept me. wtf? like i said i’ve never heard of that. she just kept talking and at that point i tuned her out and was thinking why bother telling me any useless info i just wanna leave. so she said sorry and my mom stormed out and said let’s go…. she took time off work to take me 45 mins away for them to not accept me and to not even help us out. extremely disappointing. 

so we called another place and the lady on the phone said she’d get back with us after discussing it with the doctors. so she called back an hour later but said they can’t take me either cuz they are all booked up in Feb (when i’m due). but she gave us some place else to call. she did way more than the other place did for us. so i guess we’ll call that place. if they won’t accept me idk what else to do. go to the hospital ER? say something is wrong just to get in? im worried and lost. i’m so depressed. i wish i had regular insurance i feel this wouldn’t be such a problem. 

made a chicken salad but did have piece of cheese cake after 🫢

then went to Dunkin but they made my drink wrong. i usually get a small iced latte with unsweetened flavors: coconut & vanilla with almond milk & 3 equals. but i got it and it tasted like mocha or something which i think is a sweetened flavor. so i might have had more carbs/sugar. which i was trying to avoid before my appointment. it’s whatever i guess 

i think they are supposed to offer me NIPT testing. it checks for down syndrome and can give you the gender. so if they do offer me that i am taking it. hoping my medicaid insurance covers it. says most insurance companies do. which they should since it’s pretty important to check for issues. that means i can know the gender way sooner than 20 week ultrasound. 🤞🏼

feel nauseous?? suppose to not be much of a thing going into second trimester but maybe it’s my nerves about tomorrow. off topic but i really want another salad right now 

13 weeks

this is my last week in the first tri. my sister and mom told me my skin looks good and fresh. i guess that’s the pregnancy glow that i’ve heard about. doctor is Tuesday and i’m kind of nervous cuz idk what’s gonna be done or said. i get the gist of it all and it all sucks. i hope they give me an ultrasound. i need to see what’s going on i’ve been stressing about it. is it okay in there? 🙏🏼  i’ve not been that great eating better. i got a veggie wrap but wasn’t feeling it. i just wanted sweets. i ate a piece of pie, a cupcake after only eating half of my wrap. i got salad stuff to make salads cuz i need to eat better before the appointment. don’t want them taking my blood and telling me my blood sugar is too high or whatever. i got scared again after reading about recalls on some (bagged) salads bc of Listeria in this past March-April. the stuff that can be found in deli meats, cheese, lettuce and more. i got paranoid and was afraid to eat salad. but i need to stop and get over this cuz i need to eat healthy. at least eat salads til my appt. 

i got my dress/bathing suit in and i tried it on. my bf was in love cuz it was so cute and nice fitting. i think i’ll get more of them in different colors/patterns but in a size up for my growing stomach. this one will fit me though for a couple more months. i don’t think i start officially showing until 16-20 weeks. i read since it’s my first kid it can 20 weeks and  beyond. i want to go to the beach this weekend even though temps are like 95 degrees so basically (100+). but i wanna wear it to the beach so bad. 

i think if my scan (if they do one) comes back with the baby still in there alive and well i’ll share the news to social media for friends and family to be aware of. i’ll prob announce it officially in 2 weeks or so. i keep trying to tell myself the baby is fine and it’s still alive… jumping around and floating in my stomach even though i have fears of silent miscarriages. my mom told me i need to stop. but i can’t help it. so i’m trying to keep on saying it’s alive and plan the future. i’m just paranoid about jinxing it. i get excited and it’s not even alive anymore. idk i worry about everything and it takes over my psyche. the Listeria thing did that to me today and i spent hour looking it up. i tried to stop googling stuff cuz i just get fearful and anxious. i just want things to work out for once. 

Guardians Of The Galaxy 3 was really emotional. i didn’t even make it in a minute into the intro and i started crying. i cried like 3-4 times. i’m obviously extremely emotional right now. 

first prenatal appt scheduled

doctor appointment made online to a woman OBGYN. it’s in Jupiter so probably about 25-30 minutes away and it’s at 11am. says to be there 30 mins before appt time so i’ll have to leave early in the morning. Aug 8, on Tuesday i’ll be in my last week of the first trimester. i hope and pray everything will go smoothly and everything is still going well in there. might just let them do the pap and not try to get out of it. it tests for things like cervical cancer and stuff so i probably should let them check me out. then i shouldn’t have to have that done again for years. 

people be getting upset and annoyed with me cuz i keep worrying and and bringing it up but i can’t help it. this is something new to me and i’m worrying because ive obviously never been pregnant. its pretty wild. i guess i worry too cuz i can’t see myself having a baby. like i can’t picture it being in my future. never thought this would happen to me so i can’t quite see it as a thing. it feels that something will happen to it and it won’t even be a thing in my future since i can’t see it. when i think about it i get super depressed. the fear of it failing and never getting this opportunity ever again because my bf won’t ever try again. this is my chance to have a life and purpose for something special and important. i pray things work out and everything is fine and it continues to be fine. 🍀🤞🏼🙏🏼

got a bathing suit ordered. it’s a dress bathing suit because i’m too self conscious about showing a pregnant stomach. a lot of women bare it all out in the open but not me.  not comfortable doing that. especially will creeps. there is a thing about pregnant women that a lot of men like. i read some “scientific” reason but i just think they’re gross. i also hear pregnant women just get stared at a lot and i don’t want extra attention. so i think i’ll stick to covering. it’s like a sailor looking red white and blue dress swim suit. i can wear it as a bathing suit or wear it as a dress 

Worries

i keep thinking my baby isn’t alive anymore. that the heartbeat stopped and i had a silent “missed” miscarriage. i think partly cause of my age, issues with pcos and reading so much about those 2 factors makes it more high risk. i can’t stop feeling negatively about it and the fact nothing works out for me ever. it’s always something or something causes something and it doesn’t work out. my last ultrasound was at 8 weeks and 4 days. heartbeat was good and it was still alive in there. they say if you have a heartbeat at 8 weeks the chances of it progressing is high. but i still can’t stop worrying about it. 

i even peed in a cup so they could test it for hcg and hcg was found positive in my sample. but then i google and it frightens me. it says that if you have a silent miscarriage it could still detect hcg levels for up to 3-4 weeks and the symptoms are still going as if you’re pregnant when the baby already stopped developing. also i’m so unsure because my symptoms pretty much disappeared except sore nips. hurt when trying to put shirts or bralettes on. everything else is gone which can be a sign of a mc too.  but then i read that it just means you’re entering the second trimester where symptoms usually settle down. so like which is it? idk and i can’t know until i get another ultrasound. trying to get a doctor i’m comfortable with and that takes medicaid patients. 

i over worry about everything as it is because i have severe anxiety. so this is literally what i keep worrying about at night when i try to sleep. is it still alive and well? is it going to make it full term? as much as i hate the actual part of pregnancy and not having freedom to do what i want it would devastate me if it wasn’t alive anymore and i wouldn’t ever be the same again. am i just over worrying? my mom think’s everything is fine and so does everyone else but they don’t know. my moms had 3 kids and has never even heard of a missed miscarriage before. when i told her she was like informed on new info. i just wanna get to an obgyn. a female dr and a place that has good reviews. just want to stop worrying and not being able to sleep. 

my 2 cats that stay with my brother in the trailer have bad fleas. the fleas in the house are still there but not an infestation like it was a couple months ago. Mr Dabs still has them and we medicate him monthly. i brush him every week and like i always get up to 4-6 fleas off him. like what gives? “other people” in the house don’t want us spraying cuz they’re weird about chemicals. they’re so weird about shit cause they’re brainwashed and worried about government ka and conspiracies. so they don’t trust chemicals and whatever. annoying. so he keeps getting fleas on him. now my other 2 cats have bad fleas. we’re calling a vet to see if we can bring them in to get flea dips. maybe some side meds too and we’re going to bomb the trailer. sick of the fleas. feels like they’ll never go away. idk where they’re getting them but maybe there is an opening in the trailer some where and they got on the cats that way. idk about Mr Dabs but he goes in the porch a lot. even though it was sprayed by a bug guy. idk what to do. when that person goes in their room i’m going to spray the house anyway fuck that.