12 weeks

guess i should change the nickname to something else since it’s bigger than a bean now. 

im at week 12 and my miscarriage rate should have dropped a lot now. but i won’t be fully convinced until i see the next ultrasound scan then i think i can ease my worries. still need to find an obgyn that takes medicaid patients. the place i wanted to go to was “booked up” for patients with medicaid. i don’t really wanna go anywhere else cuz bad reviews i’ve seen online. but we’ll see. need to get checked out by actual doctor. they’re gonna do a lot of invasive check ups. breast exams, possible pap, take blood from me and ask bunch of questions. i just want the ultrasound dammit 😫 i need confirmation my baby is still alive and i didn’t have any silent miscarriages. it’s scary that happens.