not in the mood

i’m awake too early and today i have to have a 1 on 1 facetime call with a dr to get refills on my medication. last time she must have misheard me cuz i’m supposed to take it 3x daily but on the bottle it said 1x a day. i kept wondering why i had no refills and would run out fast. anyways i hate hate hate doing this face call thing. i have bad anxiety talking over phones as it is and to have to see me looking how i do most days of the week nah. last time i did the camera cover trick my sister and mom told me works. you take a wet piece of paper or tp and it sticks on the camera lense of the phone. so to the receiver they see blur. i hate lying about it but last time i just said i messed my phone camera up and she said she was sorry and just went on with the call. i just dwell on these phone dr appts. weirdly enough i’d prefer to talk in person. ughhh

i think i’m seeing Spiderman on Saturday with my bf and family. he also told me we could go to dinner Friday night and get whatever. like Indian or Vietnamese food. Sunday he might get out of work early to see his work friend’s band play. 

i think one of my friends that backed out of the NOFX show is actually going to end up going. so we can ride with him which would be better since i'm not sure what’s going on with my car insurance/tag ordeal. we’re gonna try to talk him into going to this beer fest where Taking Back Sunday is playing the day before. now THAT I’m into. also noticed they’re gaining traction on TikTok randomly. their song is constantly being used now. anyway that’d be soooo dope. i like NOFX but not at much as my bf. TBS more my speed ^-^*

while i'm still awake early some movies i watched lately

We Need To Talk About Kevin - people said they felt uncomfortable by that movie and that it stuck with them but it didn’t leave me with any of those feelings. it’s messed up though but i doubt it’ll stick with me where i randomly get uncomfortable thinking about it like a lot of people are saying. i also heard the older teen Kevin actor is a bad person in real life. i googled him and yea he’s a shitty person. when people said in the movie he was playing himself, i can see that. 

Don’t Tell A Soul was good. i liked that one. i watched it alone then watched it with my bf again. he likes Rainn Wilson so i figured he’d watch that and pay attention lol. it’s a pretty twisty movie being it has more than 1 and 2 twists to it. 

i wanna go back and sleep more but by this point i’m afraid i’ll miss that stupid dr call if i do. >.>