i’m scared

tl;dr draft post synopsis of last night: arguments between us over this were bad. i am grateful for my family support at least. went for a long hour drive alone last night and cried. i needed to be alone. i didn’t eat dinner i just cried all night and didn’t sleep. insomnia is bad and i take hard couple hour naps during the day. some of my symptoms aren’t as severe anymore and that’s scary. i have pain every so often like period cramps that come and go for a couple mins at a time but go away. i’m worried it means i’m about to miscarry but reading i’m stretching inside to make room for a bean. i have family love and support but what hurts my soul is my bf isn’t acting the same way about this. reading on what to do when you think you want to keep your baby but your partner absolutely doesn’t. trying to make an appt at the women’s clinic to see what they say and advise along with ultrasound to see where i am at and if it’s even going to be successful . i’m worried i’ll make the wrong decision in which will either crush my soul for possibly ever or be wrong because maybe my bfs right. what do i do. i’m feeling alone even with half support.