gotta stop over thinking

i’m just not even gonna say anything anymore about what i feel like i wanna do cuz it just keeps changing. i’m just gonna go to my first ultrasound appointment and go from there. they finally contacted back and said to call and make an appointment. why have a booking thing online if we’re supposed to just call? whatever so tomorrow call them and make appt for Friday. that’s the day my sister has off work and my mom can take off so i’m not going alone. i’ll take it from there after discussions with the dr and see if the pregnancy is even viable etc. 

bf ended up reading that email i wrote out today and said it made him tear up. he said he was glad we had that talk as well. that’s good to hear. i’m glad he still read the email even though i gave him the run down that made him react much kinder. i’m glad he took my message to heart. 

tomorrow my bf and i are going to take Lasso to get steam cleaned. i re-stuffed him so he’s plump again. we sleep with him every night so he’s gotten flat over the years. so we’re taking him to the cleaners lol then we’re gonna go back to the asian market for more bubble tea and Udon noodles. we’re gonna make our own. we might go to some show thing which i hope not cuz i can’t drink. i’ll have anxiety and be bored i hope it rains us out. might see Spider-man finally on Saturday.