no sleep

i didn’t sleep for a few days much. i kept trying to but i would keep waking up and being stuck awake. on Saturday Corey & Paige invited us out as well as Paulseidon. we were debating on what to do. we wanted to go to the places with Paulseidon but there was a particular person that was gonna show up that all 3 of us can’t stand. so sadly it deterred me from wanting to hang out. so Corey texts and asks if  we wanna go to the bowling alley for karaoke night……… let’s jut say i did not want to do that lmao like what? first of all he has a 10pm curfew atm so it was 9pm when he asked and my bf said we’d meet them there. we get dropped off by my brother and stayed like 20 mins cuz he already had to leave. he and paige didn’t even get to sing lol. so we pretty much got dropped off for nothing. we left after they left. he did invite us over again but i told him i wanted to be out cuz i got dressed up. so we called Lyft over to drop us off at bar. the bowling alley was just full of mostly old people drunk singing karaoke. this one old lady walked by me, turned herself completely around and looked at me up and down then walked away. wtf old people are so weird sometimes. like do they not have self awareness that they’re blatantly doing that cuz they’re old or have they always been that rude? it might not even been for a negative reason but it’s rude no matter what imo.

anyways after all the outings we had to sleep to be up picked up at 10 30am to head down to this place called Korkd for a brunch. 

it was our friend JF birthday and he was playing there so we headed down with Paulseidon and had brunch. i was on 1  hour of fucking sleep. i was debating on going but i figured the brunch thing would be done around 2pm.

also took this for my photography page

 then we left and stopped by this place called Bluepoint i think. thennnn we stopped to get chicken wings for JFs bday then to his house. by this point i was regretting my decision of going period because it was one place after another. i was dying by time we got the chicken wings. so went to JFs house and i hate to be like this but the party was boring for me. a bunch of kids and their parents. my bf was gonna play music with his friends and i’m like what am i supposed to do? i saw this one girl with her bf. she wasn’t drinking and was standing around while they played music and i just thought to myself how bored out of her mind she’s gotta be. i’m so glad my bf didn’t feel like playing so he was around me a lot. i was so dead tired and drunk i felt like i was floating around in a dream. i got home and me, my bro and bf went to get late night snacks. i got white castle burgers from walgreens. when we came back i heated them up but passed out with them still in the packaging. i woke up after my bf came in the bedroom. he was taking to my mom about me and they are worried about my mania. they were talking about my manic episodes and he told me he was telling her how much he loves me and would do anything for me 🥺 i ate the burgers finally lol then passed out again only to wake up at 7am. not enough sleep at all for someone who hadn’t slept in over a day. finally finally finally i fell asleep for good.