i’m losing it

i’m so stressed and depressed. my bf is sick of me talking about fleas constantly. but if he were to get bitten 6 times a day and had his babies affected by then he’d be constantly talking about them and dwelling too. he never gets bit by bugs. mosquitoes, fleas, nothing bites him. and mr dabs is acting okay and scratching here and there but not as excessively as my guinea pigs. if it were the other way around in the scenario he’d be upset too. and i can’t help that i am obsessive about it, it’s who i am when things worry me. he’s being mean about it. 

today i set the flea traps. surprised to see the fleas did go toward the lamp. they didn’t go in the soap water that i’ve seen but they are all over that lamp. i killed like 6 of them at the same time frame cuz they showed up and i poured drops of water on them and they drowned quite fast. i am gonna keep spraying bug sprays and keep washing things. i guess the eggs keep hatching that were around and i think they are getting in my pigs that way. i treated them twice and the medicine is still working according to google. but new ones hatch around the room and they jump onto the animals. i combed the guinea pigs hair and immediately found one and then lost it. idk where that fucker went. hopefully not back on the guinea pig. it says on google that they are more noticeable when they’re dying because the medicine causes them to become hyperactive. still on the fence if that’s the reason i saw one or not. because before i treated them, i saw one on the surface. a big one. i’m just gonna keep combing them daily, spraying around and vacuuming every other day. i combed the cat today and it took me a few brushes before i found another live one. saw lots of dead ones though at least. they weren’t kidding when they said flea infestation are no joke. i feel so helpless and at a loss. idk what else i can do. i just wish they’d stay off of my guinea pigs and hamster. it breaks my damn heart seeing then itchy like that.  it including the fact they can cause illness. just tired of it and starting to lose it. i broke down today. because 2 pets of mine died and i know it was from that after all this. we just never knew it was fleas. these fleas killed my pets by giving them skin problems and internal illness. i cried. i miss my dog, i miss my other guinea pig. i just want to leave this house. i wanna take my pets and go somewhere else