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dammit, I am being sucked into the Pedro Pascal obsession helllp. the first couple episodes of The Last of Us didn't make me fall in love or anything. but i think by episode 3 and so on I started to gain a new crush and looked him up more. I've gotten roped in with heart eyes every P.P edit on Tiktok I come across. I come across lots... like nearly every swipe is a sexy P.P edit made by fans. so I come upon his interviews where he says he has seen the edits full of hearts and sparkles. lol so now he's eating it up and telling all of us he's our daddy or our "cool, slutty daddy" I'm sCrEaMinG~ then and there I was hooked lmao it's so bad I keep watching interviews and edits. all the girls love him because he apparently plays father figure roles. like in the Mandalorian which I don't watch. there were certain lines in TLOU where I was like trying to keep it together lmao when he was being stern with Ellie... I was like, if she were me, omg 😛 ok gotta stop thinking about Pedro Pascal until I see him again on my FYP 

I got my gaming chair our of the trailer. we still are borrowing from my bf's friend. I feel bad we still have that thing but my family still doesn't have a house. my mom mentioned using her tax money to help. cuz we really need to give that guy his trailer back. I feel bad. he hasn't asked for it back but still it's rude to overuse it feels. anyways so I brought the chair in our room so I can have a desk set up. keys are coming off my laptop keyboard, so I wish I could use my own monitors but there's no room. I might be able to use my bf's Mac computer and plug in my laptop so I can use the Mac as a screen but I need a specific connector. I wish I could play games but I don't have any of my stuff. keyboard, mouse, mic, speakers, cam - all in storage.

my sister moved into an apartment with her work friends. I still need to go over there so she can give the tour. so whenever my mom gets a place now that housing prices have actually gone down a bit it should be easier now. since my sister now has her own apartment with her roommates, my mom really just needs a 2 bedroom instead of 3-4. so that in itself should help find a cheaper place. so when that happens, I am going to turn that room she's staying in into my little hang out room. my computer set up and all of my collectibles. I want to get a couch too and put it in there. LED lights kinda like how T-Mobile has them. it will be cool. I can't wait 'til I can have that room for myself and have all my stuff back it's been almost a year 😭

thinking about when a good time to make another hair appt is. my sister thinks 1 - 2  more months... but I am thinking maybe 1 month, then I will go back and get more highlights. the more I go back the lighter it'll get. 

might start taking this mood stabilizer for my Bipolar disorder. I haven't been on psych meds like that in a long time. most I have been on was antidepressants which I feel make my mania worse. i'm afraid of them because anti-psychs cause weight gain in most. like when I was getting Lithium injections in my early 20's I gained weight AND my hair was falling out. didn't recover from the side effects for a year after quitting Lithium cold turkey. it fucked me up and made me more psychotic/violent which looking back now idgaf it was warranted. but this particular kind causes most people weight loss or no changes at all in weight. so I might give it another shot. I need to be on them I just hate them.