help

ok I can hardly see my eyes are so blurry. I haven't slept in so long... I was trying to fix my sleeping schedule by staying awake all day, yet here I am at 5am still awake and 1 klonopin later... I'm in tears because I really wanted to go to this Punk Rock flea market but I am worried I won't be able to go because of severe lack of sleep and by time it's time to go ill pass out. I'm suppose to drive us up there too, so my bf is relying on me for a ride to go so he can drink and mingle.

--so Thursday night I went to bed at like 12am and woke up at 3 30am.
--I stayed awake all day Friday until 2pm when we both took a 2 hour nap. he woke me up to go pick out the Christmas tree. I was so fucking tired, moody, mean, out of it. but once I got a coffee and we got our Christmas tree I had a second wind and was happy, albeit a little manic. so I get tired as hell by dinner time and we go to bed at 12am... I'm laying in bed, not sleeping, just my eyes closed with a billion different thoughts racing in my head.
--1 30am rolls around and I'm still awake so I take half a klonopin... nothing. I tried watching peaceful snow videos, listening to rain sounds... nothing. I canNOT sleep.
--4am comes upon me and I take the other half of the klonopin... it's 5 15am and I am in tears cuz I'm worried about  not  being able to go to the PRFM. I planned to stay awake all day to fix my sleeping schedule and have an outfit planned. I even volunteered to drive us up there and told him not to ask his friends for a ride "nah I can drive us" I say....... I'm having anxiety over this cuz I know hell wanna leave at 12 or 1... I'll probably by then be passed out cold and not be able to function.

speaking of cold I also spent all night sneezing and barely being able to move my head cuz of neck pain due to swollen throat. we all got colds here. my bf, my sister and even Mr Dabs is sneezing a lot.

I hate that and most of all I hate not being able to sleep. haven't slept in... idk but I've only had like 5 hours if sleep since Thursday night and it's Saturday morning now. fml 4 real. :*( as of right now, I feel like I could get up and go do stuff, but that's probably false and I'm actually sleep deprived and not realizing it. another bad thing about me missing sleep is it kicks in manic episodes. I need to be cautious.