Christmas Eve

ok never again am I dealing with shucking oysters. I'll pay the 33 cents each oyster to have the people at New England Fish Market shuck 'em. I struggled and got most of them by myself, then the last 4 we took a hammer to lmao. you have to like put the utensil in a specific area of the oyster shell to pry it open... but they were sooo good. moreee I need moreee 😭 

tripped on some Waveybars last night. idk what it but when i take shrooms, I get super emotional. we watched Slumberland and I got so emotional. my eyes were leaking so much. BUT we watched Life of Pi after and I sobbed, that movie always gets to me. something about mushrooms get me thinking about how much I love my family, my bf and my pets. I start thinking about how much they mean to me. I'll start thinking about my mom and worrying about her and how she feels. her stress and how much she does for me and my brother and sister. my mom's truly a super good person and cares so much. idk I just worry about her and how she feels... I googled it and psychedelic mushrooms can have that effect on a lot of people. they say not to hold back either and let it out if you feel like crying. if that's where your trip takes you, you cry and let it out they say. probably why I felt so much relief after and slept good. I think I stress myself out so much and hold a lot of that stress in and the shrooms kinda let me release that. idk anyways lol

I got the wrapping all done. we got so many nice presents all under our tree. I'm thinking this will be a very special Christmas for my family and my bf. ♡