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we went out to see some band my bf likes around here play. one of the members is from Killswitch Engage he told me. I think I have like 1 song on my spotify by them... or at least I use to.  it was at this cute, tiny record store. I had anxiety to be honest and I looked cute until right when we got there I go in the bathroom to find my pigtail extension falling down. so I quickly had to scramble to take it out and re do it which gave me anxiety cuz I knew someone was waiting on the bathroom. I quickly put it in and then quickly drank 3 wine glasses so that I could socialize. we weren't there very long honestly. 

we went to The Goose afterwards and we asked one friend to come out but got no reply, then asked Megs to come out and she was with her bf, Paul, M.L and 2 other people. so tiny drama happened. the first friend we invited out showed up. and he and Megs do not get along anymore. he treated her badly too many times to the point she wants nothing to do with him and rightfully so. so he comes in and then all the sudden Meaghans bf pushes him into the bar. nothing too hard but still made him stumble backwards. Megs tells me that he called her a C U Next Tuesday the previous night for ignoring him and not wanting to speak to him. so her bf got pissed off and pushed him. now the sad think is, he has no idea he even called her that. he's such a bad alcoholic that he has no clue what he says and does to people. he's a broken soul and while he's never treated me poorly, he's treated many of my female friends poorly. like misogynistic type of thing. an angry, sad alcoholic and when he's sober he's super fun to be around. reminds me of how my step dad treated me and my mom. verbal abuse was severe many years ago when he would come home drunk. then act nice the next day cuz he had no recollection of how he was. it's shitty and alcoholism sucks and took my uncle away as well. sadly, I don't think my friend will ever recover. he's too broken after the loss of his daughter. but you can't go around calling people cunts and mistreating people (always women) and not reap shit back. he's never once mistreated me though. cuz if he did I know my bf would 100% cut him out of our lives. we just feel for him and there's some connection we all 3 have. it's complicated lol. 

anyways, by the end of the night I just took my extensions out cuz i didn't even care at that point. only a month or 2 til I can get my hair done and I'm countin' down the days.