random thoughts

after watching Dahmer and seeing people talk about their confusion as to how his dad still visited him in jail, hugged him and sat by him in interviews, I thought about what I'd be like. I even took a poll on Disturbans channel where he asked "would you stand by your child if they were guilty of murder or not". most people were on the same page as me and some weren't. I saw tiktoks saying "why would he hug him?", "why would he visit him in jail" etc etc. well, thing is it shouldnt even be a question in my opinion. I would love my child no matter what they've done big or small. I would agree they should be in jail and accept the consequences. but I couldn't stop loving them no matter what. I feel like your child is always your child. so I can't understand those that could just throw their love away regardless of what they've done. I'm not a parent myself but I can understand a parent's love for their child is huge. I asked my mom this before a couple of times in a couple of different ways...ie) if she'd kill me if I were evil (thinking of the movie The Good Son) and she said no, she couldn't bring herself to kill me no matter how evil or demonic I was. then I've asked if I murdered someone would she turn me in. her response was, it depends on the reasoning but would encourage me to turn myself in. therefore, she wouldn't stop loving me no matter what I've done or who I am but would encourage me to face the consequences. I also could see her trying to understand why I did it and maybe try to make an excuse, though. because she loves her kids so much she'd do anything for them... she has. that speaks love unconditionally. 

I know for a fact if say my bfs daughter had done something bad, he'd think the same way my mom.

idk just thinking about how deep and strong family love can be. so I didn't quite understand the comments from people saying otherwise.

Dahmers father said that he wouldn't agree if his son came out as gay to him and he'd try to change him by taking him to those conversion camps to change his ways. which I don't agree with and I will never ever ever understand a parent who shuns their child or refuses to accept who they are gay, trans or whatever. thats so fucking weird to me. you either love them for them no matter who they are or you don't truly love them at all is kinda my take. I don't doubt he loved his son though. I saw the interview of him crying while reading the letter he wrote to the judge. sad stuff.