life

season 5 of The Handmaid's Tale started and I watched the first 2 episodes that came out so far. fuck, this show really gets to me. I feel like I'm watery eyed every 10 mins, tears down my face every 30 mins and sobbing every other episode. it's such a good show but very, very hard to watch cuz it's super fucked up stuff and it breaks me. also makes you hate men even more 😅

nothing going on except dealing with personal life shit and will be for some time. we sent in 1 application already to the lady for the house and need 2 more done for 2 more adults. so it's 75.00 each application for 3 people. I'm not included cuz I won't be living there. I may set up a room for myself since it's a 4 bedroom, but I'm going to be living with my boyfriend. expensive shit just to possibly be told no. scam.  it's always about money 🙄  but maybe she will be compassionate and say okay on the place. if not, she said she has 74 other properties. that's insane to me. so I'm hoping she'll hook my family up with something! wish I was well off cuz it would help a lot of the things going on in my life right now.

my bfs birthday is coming up and I ordered his birthday gifts last night. he doesn't want a cake, so I'll just get him some cupcakes or something to at least put candles in.

Halloween coming and I wanted to be an angel but there isn't anything cute as far as that goes that I want, so I'm still debating. I haven't bleached my roots in months and I hate it but still trying to go strong and not so that I can grow my hair out. I wanna get highlights instead of straight bleaching. I wanna be blonde still, but more of a natural blonde. better for the hair for sure. just hoping I don't cave in and bleach it.