bf bday

Friday night I gave my bf his gifts early so we could use them. I got him new sheets for the bed in orange to match his amps. I also got him this weed rolling tray that lights of and has a Bluetooth speaker on it that plays music and flashes to the beat. it's pretty awesome looking and fun. we tripped that night so I figured using the tray would look tippy while rolling joints. we laughed so hard. I also laughed so hard I'd sob afterwards. I think I have had so much stress built up over the past couple months that I hid it most of the time. it built up so much so finally I had to cry. my bf said some really meaningful, touching things that truly made me cry. he was telling me how much my family means to him. he considered all of them family and he'd so anything for us. he's glad we're all safe here with him. he told me how much he loves me and it really got me. I cried more. but we watched Series Of Unfortunate Events, laughed a ton, had heart to hearts and it felt good to have a night of fun. next day it was like a reset button. felt good. we stayed in bed til it was time to go see Pearl.

Saturday went to dinner at Fujiyama for my bfs bday and had a bunch of friends come too. we got the same guy to do the cooking show we had 2 other times and he's the best one. while he cooks he makes funny sounds like "ohhyeaa", "meowww" just random funny sounds and "roooowwwrrr" and he'd follow it up with a funny laugh. we did Sake Bombs, Japanese beers and more Sake shots. I ordered shrimp and scallops hibachi. we did the thing where he tosses the food and you have to catch it with your mouth. I didn't want to cuz embarrassing lol but I forced myself to participate and not care. I missed. but my friends son caught it and so did my friend Paul.

after we went to Boardwalk (not the biggest fan of that bar tbh) but all our friends met up there and some fight was going on and some girl was being dragged out and my friend was like we gotta go cops will show up here any minute. none of us wanted to deal with that so we left. went back to Paul's and it was just him, me Paige and my bf and we partied it up and  went in the pool in the rain. I had a heart to heart with Paige and told her one of the biggest traumas ive gone thru in life. i talked to her about it, let it out. and she told me i can always talk to her no matter what. ugh i love her, shes such a good person. we didn't get home til 7am. we Ubered back and the Uber driver was super nice and we were telling her how it was a birthday party and we were out all night. I was so tired at that point and was ready for bed. I hope Paul gave her 5 stars. he booked our uber. if we did she would have gotten 5 stars from us and a nice review.

just out of the pool and ready to go home and sleep

just got back from late breakfast/lunch. today's my bfs actual bday. drove him to the Dmv and I'm waiting in the car right now. gonna get Dunkin after. I'm super tired feeling and out of it. prob from the weekend and yesterday we laid in bed all day recovering. but I am gonna get an espresso shot and a coffee. so this hurricane is hitting Florida but more toward the West coast.  I have some old friends that live out there so I hope safety for them. we're gonna get lots of rain but won't get the full hurricane effect.