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being black out drunk is one of the scariest things that can ever happen to anyone. I know from first hand I have been black out drunk a couple of rare times. not often but I have had that happen and it's like you're on autopilot. I was watching this interrogation video off of Red Tree Crime's youtube channel where this cop beat his cop partner to death after a night out drinking and had no recollection of doing so. I read a comment, actually all of the comments were expressing how they've been black out drunk and it scared them into quitting alcohol all together. but this one comment explained it so well she said what is infront of you, you don't see that. cuz your mind is somewhere else. so your minds elsewhere while your body is in the present on autopilot. people in the comments were saying they would wake up from the night before and be frightened they'd done something wrong. one person said they woke up in jail, covered in blood thinking they had done something but had no memory of what happened. it turned out it was just that he drunkenly fell and hurt himself. I've done things while black out drunk that I don't remember doing either. I've been so gone that I don't remember leaving and going off to do other stuff which is so scary. I was around safety but if I hadn't been... I could see something bad happening to me. it  could be anything from being taken advantage of, kidnapped, fallen and never wake up... anything. but I wonder this... the people who hurt others while black out drunk, are they just like that internally? are they so angry that when black out drunk they are in that mindset where they're acting out what they think about all the time? or does the alcohol completely change their brain? I know I've been black out drunk but never wanted to kill someone. only things I've been black out drunk and done bad stuff on the internet where I'd been banned off platforms but had no recollection of it or why so when asking why I've been banned they show me evidence and I am like no shit? damn. that's on the lighter end of my black outs. other more severe black outs are me physically out and about, walking around and doing things which can lead to injury. luckily I'm always with my boyfriend or friends that wouldn't let anything happen to me but if I were alone, it'd be so dangerous because people are weirdos. anyways just my thoughts coming to post.