fucking scared

so I've been super depressed and anxious since finding out I am being kicked out of my house by the landlord and only have til the end of this month to find a place that can't afford. I broke down a lot yesterday and during the night. my brother might be moving to California, my sister and her bf might be going to his grandmas, if not I might not have a room, I don't wanna live with my bf cuz he lives eith other people. like shit is changing and I'm scared. honestly worried. if renting wasn't so much money these days it'd be fine-ish. but literally for a shitty ass house I'm seeing like 2500 a month and more, where as before it was 1500/mo. I just can't deal. I'm so worried. I hate to be that bitch but if anyone at all is reading, I have a donate button for PayPal donations if you wanna help. anything counts. my bf is doing his best to help out and he was furious. he was yelling about how landlords are pieces of shit. to literally throw a family of many out just to make more money on your already shitty place. giving everyone of us 2 weeks to find a place. that's so unheard of. 2 weeks he expects us to be out of here. that just can't happen. so I feel like everyone's gonna be separated and all bumming off people's places til we can find a decently priced place that allows pets. my bf contacted a friend of ours who can look for us. he said he found a 3 bed/2 bath for 1600/mo in Jensen which prob won't be a great house but whatever. he says his assistant will link us. my bf is doing everything he can to find us something. he's super upset about this too. like I said him going on and on about it and getting angry about this landlord and how he's a shitty human for doing this. like, I get the landlord situation but also I agree with my bf. like at least give us a month... like if my bf didn't live with people I'd obviously be moved in by now but I don't like that. im comfortable with my fam. but now that the family is kinda falling apart and going different places to stay sucks and made me cry. I was playing pubg mobile... cried. I was driving over to my bfs... cried. my bf dragged me out of the house to meet up with friends and as much as I didn't wanna go for the fear of just crying I'm glad I did. I hung out with my friends and new girls I've never hung with. we were partying til like 7am and we drunkenly stopped by the beach to see the sunrise. this one girl we gave a ride to walked up on the beach in heeled boots lmao queen shit. my other friend was wasted so she stood by holding onto the fence out there lol. crazy night. I'm exhausted and not gonna do much of anything today. my bf and I ordered food and just been sleeping and laying around. I guess I'll just start packing my shit up tomorrow and throw shit in boxes day by day. idk what me and my pets are gonna do. worries me.

me trying to forget everything with friends

 back to reality now...