pool day

I had a really fun/crazy weekend. we went out Thursay for a bit, then planned to have lunch/day drink day with Paige the next day. me and my bf went to Shuckers for lunch. My friend slept in so she called and we figured we'd just meet up at my bfs house after lunch instead. we decided on doing Sake Bombs and snack foods at Benihana. I was already full from lunch prior so we ordered sushi rolls and took them home for later.

after we left and were on the way to the liquor store to make margaritas, they both knew the guy who worked there. he handed us tiny honey burboun shot bottles and did them in the store lol. omg on the way back home we saw this guy just sitting in the sprinklers on the sidewalk in the middle if the round-about. no shirt, just him cooling off in the sprinklers 😂 I was like "what's going on there" so P turns around and was like oh that's a vibe". she didn't see the guy she just saw his stuff and was like oh ok lmao. then she noticed him and we drove around 3 times trying to get a pic of him in the sprinklers cuz it was that iconic. no pic but I'll never forget seeing that lol.

we get back and start making margaritas. we went into the pool and contemplating taking tabs. we bounced it around a bit and finally was like fuck it, it's Friday and we're having a fun pool day, let's get crazy. so we took 2 each and we had a blast. we were in the pool laughing so hard over everything. everything was chill until another friend came over that was gonna drop off weed. ummmm this gets interesting... so me and P get out of the pool cuz I started to get all bit up by mosquitoes and we, soaking wet, shuffle in by them to change. I stayed in the room a bit to take a break and she went out there with my bf and his friend. she comes back into the room shaking her head. I'm like what happened she's like... "uhhh the guy is like, rapping about abortions and fetuses". I'm like wtfffff. oh and he didn't even drop off weed. so whyyyy come over?? jsyt to rap about that?? she said she had to just leave cuz it was killing her trip. he just started rapping about heavy, dark shit when we're trying to keep a good, and positive headspace here. so I asked her what my bf was doing while he's rapping and she's like he's just sitting there like 🤙🏻I laughed 😅 cuz I could see that. my bf being nice and chill 😎 while this guy's rapping about his views on abortion and bloody fetuses omg. so we sat in the room cracking up about whatever we were laughing about. bf comes in and was like omg I'm sorry about him. we went back outside and laughed so much more. I wanna tell this one thing that we laughed hard about to where tears were coming out. the bottle of tequila she bought looked huge. she was saying how we really went thru that tequila and then I said the bottle looks like it's an illusion to make it look like there's a lot. so I'm like imagine you pour a shot and it's a tiny amount. so we joked back n forth about the tiny amount I'm like "woo were gonna need a chaser after that" and we died laughing in the kitchen. we just kept going back n forth with jokes about it.

I was talking to her about how I blog and how I've been blogging for years. like since 2004 and still have all those accessible memories. she was telling me that I should save those. like export them and print them or put them on a USB drive. she was telling me that long after I'm gone maybe someone would come upon my writings and be like "that's one fun bitch" and said I could maybe even help someone since I talk about mental health and down days, up days. she's rights I really should get all of those memories saved off the website. I know there's ways I just gotta figure that out. she said I should make them into a book and save it. so I think I will. I always worry what if the site shuts down and all my memories are deleted. it made me feel happy that she thought it was so cool that I did that. cuz I don't talk too much about my blog to my friends or anything and when i do noone seems to say much. my bf and mom know more about it but I don't usually bring it up ever.

after yesterday we were suppose to have my sister and her bf comes over for dinner but we needed recovery day. I'm just wanting to say how happy I am to have such caring, good friends. like good , kind hearted people in my circle. we have a small circle of true friends that I consider close but Paige has been the one that I feel the most connected with. we talked about my stalker I have a bit which I don't like to talk about on here much. I told her how sometimes I'm scared he'll show up one day at my house. like in the back of my mind sometimes I'm like what if he comes down here and just gets even weirder waiting at my house or something. I doubt it, but you can't ever be 100%. so she was telling me she's gonna buy me some stuff for safety. she had a stalker too she told me so she gets the fear i have at times. my stalker lives far but not far enough that he comes down here every year. but yea I don't like going into it online cuz I don't want him to see I even think about it. anyways tomorrow my bf wants to go out for Father's day like dinner or something. I'm trying to sleep but Mr Dabs just brought a palmetto bug in bed and I freaked out. I hear him running around playing with the bug and I'm afraid he'll drop it on my face in my sleep.