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went to this biker show my bf and friends were playing for one of the band friends friends/work mate. (if that wasn't confusing enough.) I never felt so out of place in my life. some lady walking around taking pictures of the event asked if she could take a picture of me. right away I had anxiety cuz I didn't want people staring at me. she directed my position next to someone's motorcycle. I felt so cringey lmao and some people were staring and asked what were doing and she's like "she's modeling!" cringeeee. it was a very boring event for me. my bf and I were just making jokes about bikers the whole time. no offense if anyone reading is into them. that's cool. I have a friend who is the head of one of the groups. but we were just saying how funny it is that grown men are in a club and like you have to be invited in and shit 🤭

we went out to sushi with some friends which was good. I love sushi. not much to say about it but here's pics

I feel depressed today. I was doing good for a bit until a bit of drama happened this weeken and I've been bothered by it. I also tripped and I think that has something to do with it too. I don't sleep when I take tabs. I end up stuck awake into the next day until afternoon or night sometimes. I don't do well mentally when I hardly sleep. that's what sucks when I become in a manic phase. I was doing a bit better with sleep for a while even though the schedule may have been askew I was at least getting sleep. I wish I had my chair back so I could blog properly but it's being borrowed. I use my Twitter for microblogging when I have just something to say that isn't needed for an entire post. so the twitter feed shows up on my blog. not sure why I didn't microblog at that biker thing I was hella bored.