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I have been waking up every day this week at 6am. this is a first in a long time because my sleep schedules ae so bad all of the time. some days I sleep and some I don't. some I sleep a little, some I sleep a lot. I've been trying to defeat mania, racing thoughts and anxiety so I can be normal. we got VIP tix to see Craig Robinson this weekend for my friend Jeff's b'day. what do people wear to comedy clubs? like I'm sure dressing nice is kinda something? idk? not formal obviously, but nice casual idk. I have never been to a stand up show before. honestly, most of the time it's hard for me to pay attention to stand up cuz it's not something I normally feel into watching. but I do like Katt Williams and Sebastian Manascalco. I like Craig Robinson but don't know much about how his stand ups are. it's weird to call him by his name... I've always referred to him as Matheson from Pineapple Express. we're also getting dinner down in Clematis Street. I wanna look nice but I wanna look Kawaii and wear pigtails like I normally do lol. I am putting pink in my hair today though so maybe just wear  it down. maybe I can get my bf to buy me a new dress for this event hmm 😏

I worked on my blog yesterday and today because I was neglecting it a little... I still don't have my chair back so I haven't been sitting at the desk. ugh I unplugged everything 😒 and am working from the bed so I'll have to plug everything back in when I get my chair back. I added more things to the sides and changed the layout of my blog a bit. I need to sell more stuff I am so poor right now and the gas prices are so much. I appreciate my bf getting me gas since I do all of the commuting but he only fills it up to a quarter. I wanna fill it up all the way. obviously not while the prices are almost 5 a gallon but yea, when they go down I need to fill it up to last me way longer. I have things to sell but things only seem to sell if they are brand items. like Forever 21 stuff sells. but stuff I have sitting in my closet with tags on them from stores like Kohls don't. 😔

my bf's daughter is coming down next week for a week so I usually try and stay home to give them their time. I do hang out too though a bit with them. like we might go to an aquarium or something. but other than that I keep to myself at home. so I need something to do. maybe I can talk him into letting me have the rest of that Jameson. hopefully I can get my chair back by then too so I can be at my desk. the last time I was on Twitch literally no one came in the room and I think it's 'cause I had it set to Pubg mobile category and there isn't much traction in there. my domain name for my lives expired 'cause I never used it and honestly it was a waste of money. I am way too unreliable in the streaming world to bother with that. in my head I want to do it, but when it comes down to it I don't end up doing it. I'd say most of the time I am in a bad mood and don't wanna talk to people even tho I have fun when I do and there are peeps to talk to. idk what to do today. this week I was busy-ish but today is falling flat.