updatez

weekend: this weekend my bf and I dogsat his boss's dog. we took her downtown to walk the pier, he took her to the dog park while I stayed home cuz I was so tired. she slept with us in bed and Mr Dabs was super good about it. we weren't sure if they'd argue lol. we took mushrooms this weekend and fuck, I had horrible anxiety attack. like I was miserable and kept trying to make it stop but I just had to wait it out. eventually it stopped but I felt like I was dying. I nver had that happen that badly before on mushrooms. I think it's cuz lately I haven't been sleeping. I noticed that I keep getting them lately ever since my sleeping is bad. aside that shit, we went to downtown Ft. Pierce for some St Patricks day things. we grabbed a beer and walked around then ended up over at Wasabi. my fave place to go in downtown Ft P. then we grabbed pizza for some reason? lmao. I felt super badly about it because I have been eating low carb for almsot 2 weeks at that point and I fucked it up by eating carbs. I'm trying to lose weight and get back to normal. since my one medication stopped working after many years I have to work extra hard to keep my weight normal. I have never been this heavy in my life. for me it causes my period to stop coming and all other bs. so my bf and I are continuing on with the LC diet. tonight I think we're making pork chops and vegetables to start back on track.

today: had top take my old cat Shrimpsy into the vet again so they could check her face infection. they said it's getting better and we're doing a good job with her meds. as my brother and I were there we saw the cutest little baby cat in the waiting room. apparently they said she was dropped off there over the weekend and was taken from a hoarding house. much like Stanley (I still miss that boy and I hope he is safe wherever he is). so my brother asks the front desk about the cat. so we decided on Friday we're going back to adopt her. her name is Minerva? (wtf) like it sounds like a medication you see on commercial or like my sister said, a new shot "the Minerva shot". lmao so we're gonna be changing that.  

I watch crime ALL the time and I usually just find myself shaking my head in disgust or cursing at the murderers (out loud lol) while they talk about them. but I hardly ever cry. I was watching Dave's Lemonade and his latest video on Jessica Camilleri. I cried over that one when Dave said his part at the end of the video. it really got to me probably cause I found a lot of similarities in her mother in my own. I want to make more tiktoks. it's actually a lot of fun to make them. cringe? who gives a shit. I am learning to care less about things like that and just do things that are fun. I am locked out of my unable to login to my kittykaley acc. so I had to start anew and already and making friends on there.