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February 13, 2022

just wanna talk about this

I have something I wanna get off my chest. last night out I was preyed on by a couple looking to groom drunk women to sleep with or whatever the fuck, dude. you are a predator if you specifically go out to hunt for drunk, vulnerable women. knowing that we are at a bar, drunk and easily persuaded to do things that would never ordinarily cross your mind.  this girl I thought was my fucking friend just wanted me to fuck her and her creepy husband. and I'm so fucking sickened and uncomfortable that I even entertained the thought. I was hammered. flirty with her... i think even kissed in the bathroom stall. All things that are not okay but to me was just typical drunk girlfriend bullshit ya know. clearly more was on her mind. I keep beating myself up for even entertaining the thought. I'm mad at myself honestly. but what I'm even more upset about is that this creepy couple go to bars just to scour for drunk girls in not clear minds. it's so predatory and flat our creepy. toward the end of the outing I caught myself and was like... wtf am I even doing. this isn't me. that's why I feel so dirty and uncomfortable. cuz I'm not like that nor would I ever do anything like that. I feel so creeped out like I wanna shower a bunch of times. so I immediately tell my bf. I tell him everything and he was furious. not at me, but at them... mostly her. we were friends man. my bf feels betrayed by her and rightfully so. I deleted her and her husband from my Facebook friends and right away I get a fucking creepy message from her husband. I just blocked him and didn't say anything... but when I told my bf he sure as hell was not gonna let this go. he messaged her and told her off. told her to keep her husband away from me or else he will beat the shit out of him. do I condone any of my bfs actions or words. fuck no. I don't want him to get in trouble or anything stupid. but I can't control him. he stands by what he said about ever running into them again it won't be good. she made immature responses and tried to throw me under by saying she has screen shots from me? like so fucking what lmao. first of all I didn't see anything in my message history. second I  told my bf everything that happened and how I shouldn't have let it get to where it got. am I in the wrong for allowing their behavior and even participating in flirting with the idea. absolutely. but what I do know is that I was so fucked up last night and they know that and that's why they go to bars to do this shit. they know women are vulnerable and easy to persuade. I want all people to be cautious of people like them. predators. please stay safe and don't mess with that shit. you'll regret it and feel gross. I should have listened to 2 of my friends about them. they tried to warn me and tell me and my bf that they do this. but it never crossed my mind that they, mostly her, was a weirdo. I just don't feel comfortable knowing they prey on drunk women. I don't like it at all and I just hope no one falls victim. I don't even wanna go to the bar for a while. I just feel disgusted. I should have done things differently for sure and I am trying not to beat myself up over this. I spent the whole night in my bfs bedroom sobbing and explaining everything to my friend. I missed out on hanging out with my friends the remainder of the night cuz I couldn't stop crying. just an all around bad ending of a night. makes me just wanna hug my bf and not let go. something feels... off for me. I just feel idk like I said....dirty. I also saw her true colors when we were in the bathroom and someone tried to open the stall door. she legit treated the person like shit. yelling at them saying rude shit. like wtf is wrong with you? you'd think with all that plant bullshit and yoga she does shed be less aggressive. I'm just bummed that I thought she was my friend and instead turned out to be a real weirdo. but I can't stress this enough. please please please if you're reading this be careful. even if you think it's just friendly conversation. just be aware and be careful when drinking. all I wanna say on this shit I wanna move on.

edit: a lot of people have come forward to me about them. and some other bad things. 

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