great news

they arrested a guy for the Idaho murders!!!! what a great way to start my day honestly. I'm so happy to hear that. this case has been bothering me so badly. also I was super worried for my other guinea pig cuz she keeps scratching. I was going to make another vet appointment but decided I'd check her first and her skin feels fine. no rough patches. so relieved in that too. :) :)

what the heck

so it looks like we may have been quick enough to cancel that money order that was stolen. this isn't the only weird thing that happened. my sister sent me her conversation between her and her bf. her bf was suppose to do a roof inspection but the owner of the house wasn't answering the door. so he just went ahead with the roof inspection. he said it was his first inspection alone. the home owners granddaughter shows up and asks who my sister's bf us and he's like "I'm suppose to inspect the roof." the granddaughter says the family has been trying to call him for days with no response. well, they find out he's dead inside. wtf like... what is going on these past few days? it's not even the new year yet. I hope Zacks okay and not traumatized and I hope the family is okay after finding this out. 

I was just going to post my pictures cuz I didn't have anything to say til I woke up and got those messages from her.

our car was broke into

what a great way to end Christmas night by having our family car broken into. my sister had to call the police when she found out someone broke in my mom's car my sister uses for work, to steal our house money order. 

my mom put away 2 grand in money orders so that we wouldn't touch it so we can use it for her getting a place. my mom took out 1 of them so she could buy Christmas presents and she was gonna put that money back after she got paid since she wouldn't get paid in time for Christmas.so they stole 1 thousand dollars from us and tried using my sister's card at some gas station on Ave D.

so they stole our money and the police found my mom's license in someone's yard. people are such pieces of shit to steal from others. my family is already struggling and to steal our only saved up money for a new place is so fucked up. then for it to be on Christmas night? fuck off. i hope the police can check the gas station security cameras. fuck them I hope they die.

Christmas presents

Christmas Eve

ok never again am I dealing with shucking oysters. I'll pay the 33 cents each oyster to have the people at New England Fish Market shuck 'em. I struggled and got most of them by myself, then the last 4 we took a hammer to lmao. you have to like put the utensil in a specific area of the oyster shell to pry it open... but they were sooo good. moreee I need moreee 😭 

tripped on some Waveybars last night. idk what it but when i take shrooms, I get super emotional. we watched Slumberland and I got so emotional. my eyes were leaking so much. BUT we watched Life of Pi after and I sobbed, that movie always gets to me. something about mushrooms get me thinking about how much I love my family, my bf and my pets. I start thinking about how much they mean to me. I'll start thinking about my mom and worrying about her and how she feels. her stress and how much she does for me and my brother and sister. my mom's truly a super good person and cares so much. idk I just worry about her and how she feels... I googled it and psychedelic mushrooms can have that effect on a lot of people. they say not to hold back either and let it out if you feel like crying. if that's where your trip takes you, you cry and let it out they say. probably why I felt so much relief after and slept good. I think I stress myself out so much and hold a lot of that stress in and the shrooms kinda let me release that. idk anyways lol

I got the wrapping all done. we got so many nice presents all under our tree. I'm thinking this will be a very special Christmas for my family and my bf. ♡

christmas party

Christmas party went not bad. a bit of it was kinda vague for me. I didn't remember calling my mom or ranting to my sister about wanting to go home and being super pissed off. but apparently I was texting my sister saying my bf was ignoring me and I hated being there. I was demanding to go home. I remember why that would have been. my bf said he'd be right back and he'd go have a cigarette. so I sat back in a corner waiting for him to come back in... but what felt like 45 mins to an hour he was outside chatting it up. I had anxiety and wasn't full on drunk enough yet to go around the party alone. so it pissed me of he just left me there alone in the corner. so I'm bitched about it to my family over the phone. I got better later in the night cuz... here's me after all that

me and Jeff. 

his wife Christina did end up coming over to me and hanging out with me and I had fun with her.

now by this point I'm wasted which is good cause no anxiety around all the party guests. I think I got so drunk is bc I hardly ate that day. I had a breakfast burrito at like 8 30am and like 2 shrimp at the party. do nothing to really absorb the alcohol. 

today were getting oysters finally. ever since we went to dinner and got them,  I've become obsessed. so we're getting our own instead of a restaurant. we're gonna go look at these christmas lights tonight. I'll take many pics there, its pretty cool. we went a couple years ago. I think the pics are some where around my blog. probably gonna take edible and go look at those lights. it's gonna be cold (for Florida) here tomorrow and for christmas day which is perfect. low 36f/45f and the high's are  

55f/54f 🤌🏻

christmas cookies

we finally made these damn Christmas cookies after putting it off. they look like a bunch of children made them 😭  I tried to make 2 Lassos and a Roadkill. the Roadkill looks like a dog taking a shit and one of the Lassos looks scary. it got to the point where we were sick of decorating and we hurried up and made some ugly ass designs. at least they're colorful?

have a Christmas party to go to tomorrow at Paul's. weird to have it on a work day and not on like Friday or something. so that's gonna be hopefully fun. I think we're also invited to ML's for bonfires Christmas Eve with a couple others. sounds kinda boring no offense but who knows, maybe will be fun. 

vet day

so after anxiety and stress over this vet visit I'm happy to say it's done. we took Bitzy to the vet and she got checked out. apparently they took skin samples and found no evidence of mites. they also said that dogs can't transfer the same mites to guinea pigs. they first weighed her and I warned the nurse that she's hard to handle but the girl did great and got her weighed. so the dry skin on her back is from her being too fat to groom herself. she's over weight a bit weight 2.7 lbs. that's probably because she would eat the majority of the food between the 2. so I am going to be feeding her less amounts. they said she might not lose the weight so if not, I just need to wipe her back for her. so she just has dry skin according to the vet. they found no moving parasites in her samples. they put drops in her ears to clear wax build up and they trimmed her nails really nicely. the vet also explained to me what more than likely happened to Mitzy. she said that mites are every where and always on animals and people. but animals and people generally fight them off naturally. but Mitzy was probably weak. her immune system was probably weak so the mites took over her body. scary shit. we did notice she was sneezing a bit more than usually but I figured it was just dust from hay or something. but she may have had a viral infection and was weakend. so she was unable to fight the mites. at least that's what my understanding is.

she looks so funny here. she doesn't wanna be there lol

Jake went to the vet too and he got all checked up on. he doesn't have mites either. my mom said she had them check 3 times. they said that it was dry skin. so they gave him a shot for his itchiness, some spray to help sooth his skin and they cleaned up his ears. he has 2 teeth that are infected so they gave us antibiotics to treat that. he needs  more fiber in his diet too. so no mites on either of them. I am glad to hear that because what happened to Mitzy was so scary. Jake's vet also said that those mites are not transferable between dogs and others.

were still going to keep an eye on both animals for a bit just to keep making sure everything is good. I might look into getting some coconut oil for my guinea pigs dry skin. guinea pig price was 68.00. Jake's was 212.00. not THAT bad but it's money we don't really have. I'm just glad they're safe and got checked out.

when my bf made the appointment for my guinea pig, they couldn't seem to hear him? he repeated her name Bitzy over and over. I guess they still didn't catch it cuz on the email confirmation for the appointment it said BITEY 😂 the nurse was like "I'm so glad to hear that it was a mistake and her name isn't Bitey" lol she said she wasn't looking forward to examining a biting guinea pig lol. my guinea pigs never really bite. I haven't had them bite me before just maybe a lil when trying to take treats. so I am gonna wait a week or 2 before getting a new guinea pig friend just to make sure Bitzy is all checked out 110%. I'm relieved though. 

Saturday

we went to my fave restaurant around here Crawdaddys. I'm obsessed and love going there. we tried going to happy hour at Conchy Joe's but they had the entire bar area was closed off for private Christmas party. they only do happy hour at the section of the restaurant so we left. so we went to Crawdaddys for appetizer and happy hour. we get mussels at CJ's and they're good, but Crawdaddys beats the hell out of CJ's mussels, they're worth the 8 bucks more. we got some boiled peanuts to go. we went home and we made enchiladas for J's Christmas work party. I'm invited but nah. I don't really wanna sit around the tattoo shop, playing games or whatever they do. if they go out like last year, I'm down. last year my bf picked me up after the shop party and we went out. after going out last night we made some night time snacks. chicken wings 😋

evidence of me anticipating the chicken 

about to create a delicious sauce for the chicken wings. I used the boiled peanut juice they make at Crawdaddys and I added hot sauce, garlic and onion powder 

oh and bonus. I'm excited to make cookies and rice crispy treats tonight

i miss Mitzy

we buried Mitzy :( she's in a place in the yard with Chintzy and my bfs previous pets. it's kinda like the property is a pet cemetery. I'm glad to be burying here because my bf owns the home. so not like we move up places and the animals are left behind. my animals are always here. ugh I feel like crying again. I love my guinea pig and I hope she is in a really happy pig place with lots of cilantro. no offense to my hamsters but these guinea pigs have my heart. they were my everything. it's been tearing me up a lot.

my bf and I watched Lyle Lyle Crocodile because he claimed Lasso wanted to watch it soooo bad. so after months of waiting, we rented it as soon as it came out and honestly, it was a really good movie. it was so cute,  that my bf wants to buy a Lyle Lyle Crocodile plushie for the room. 

so guinea pig situation... we made an appt for the 27th for my other guinea pig to make sure she doesn't have mites or whatever was wrong with my other pig and whats wrong with my dog. my other guinea pig (Bitzy) seems fine I think? idk I see some white flakes on her lower back like I did with Mitzy (kinda concerning) but it could just be dry skin. idk but I'm paranoid and want to be sure she's clear. so that when I bring a new guinea pig home they won't get infested with those creepy mites. but my bf called his old vet and they can get her in Monday at 4pm instead of the 27th with our vet. same time Jake has to go at 4 30pm believe it or not. I'm just so happy Jake is finally about to feel some relief from the mites. also to protect my pig. so after the vet on Monday, were gonna disinfect the room they stay in and the house rugs. then I'll be getting a new piggy friend for Bitzy.

I still need to make my Dr appointment and still buy my bfs gifts and my TX friend something. my father's sending me a Christmas check so I'll probably use that money towards the gifts since I'm extremely low on funds after these vet visits and my soon Dr visit. hopefully we can get approved for that pet care credit card.

ugh I miss Mitzy, but Bitzy seems to be doing okay. she's eating normally, was popcorning and wheeks loud for her treats and food. we keep checking her skin for anything bad. she's just the one that's so difficult to pick up bc she hates it and she squirms around. she's loud too with angry wheeks. drama pig.

last night we went to a Kava bar and tried their drinks there. we got this Kratom drink flavored in strawberry mango. it was good, we drank them fast. it's supposed to give you energy and stuff. I'm not sure if it did anything but I can never tell. the sign in there says their drinks are better than alcohol and I laughed. apparently lots of recovering alcoholics go to kava bars as well as the younger crowds. lots of highschoolers. was kinda filled with a lot of younger people but other than that it's pretty chill in there. tonight we are making Christmas cookies and wrapping presents. 

RIP Mitzy

she died about an hour ago. I woke up to check and was about to have her vet appointment call, but she was shallow breathing. I just had a bad feeling she would die last night but I'm glad I was with her in her last moments. she's also no longer suffering which I'm glad. I have to leave her in the cage for a bit so my other guinea pig can cope and understand because they were bonded and like sisters. it breaks my heart. my other guinea pig slept next to her cuz she knew something was wrong. she is hanging around her a lot trying to understand what's going on it's the saddest thing. 

I can't get her a new sister until I make sure her and Jake are treated. especially Jake cuz he's the one who had them and got them on my guinea pig. so we're making vet appointments for by the weekend to get them fixed up. then cleaning everything. 

this just sucks. it's awful and I feel for my other guinea pig. :( I love you Mitzy ♡

my guinea pig is in seriously bad condition. today I saw her and noticed she wasn't moving much and just looked weird. her fur was all messed up and she looked lethargic. I picked her up and her whole stomach and back legs were covered in rough skin. I can't explain it but it was all over. so I checked her back and head and it's all rough and bumpy. I freaked out and started crying. I did more research on Google and read that Guinea pigs get lice and mites but not fleas. so weird cuz yesterday she seemed fine, weeks ago seemed fine. but maybe I just didn't notice?? 

backing up here; we took my dog Jake to the vet because he'd been scratching so badly he would sometimes bleed and his fur was coming out. the vet says it's just fleas cuz she found one on him. she told us to get a flea collar and wash him 3 x a week. we did all that. 250+ bucks later and he's still miserable, still scratching and biting... still losing hair and is looking sparse. so we were like wtf is going on. we fork over nearly 300 dollars to fix him for them to just say it's fleas. he did have some fleas, but this should not still be going on weeks later. so we were going to schedule him another fucking appt. 

forward again back to today and my guinea pig has THE SAME SYMPTOMS. google is telling me this is a mites situation. apparently the mites got onto my guinea pig and infested her entire body. it is so fucking scary. she's miserable, her skin is covered... entire body... she can't eat or drink water. I tried giving her lettuce, her fave cilantro treats... nothing. she kept going over to her water bottle but would attempt to drink it but not drink and would just wobble back over to her hide out. she's so fucking wobbly. I cried and hyperventilated a bit earlier. I'm distraught because I sat with her for hours and all I'm gathering is she's getting worse. 

I'm going to see about taking her to the vet tomorrow if they can get her in as early as they can. I'm actually going to be taking both guinea pigs in case the other is infected with me just not noticing it yet. since it wasn't noticeable until today. they must spread fast?? mites are so contagious. also getting my dog in there too AGAIN. to ask them wtf... cuz he didn't get better because it wasn't just fleas and it now spread from my dog to my guinea pig. what the fuck. weird tho that Mr Dabs is fine? but see Jake stays mostly in that room with the guinea pigs...

I'm shaking right now I'm so scared. I have a bad, bad, bad feeling she won't make it thru the night til tomorrow. she's so weak and delirious acting. isn't drinking water or eating. I can't do this right now. my guinea pigs are my life. I love them with my whole heart. I worry about them even in my dreams sometimes. I have many guinea pig dreams. I'm so stressed out and scared. I hate leaving her alone but I have to sleep so I can be awake early in the morning. my brother and sister are gonna go with me to the vet appt so I am not alone. idk what to do. I hate her suffering like this. she's just so miserable and fucked up. her entire body is just... it's terrifying. 

I don't have a lot of money either. my bf told me they have these pet care credit cards where we can pay gradually. gonna try and get one of those. otherwise idk yet how ill even pay for this. I'm praying that my pig will make it to the vet I really am. idk what else I can do but cry and periodically check on her. I don't want her feeling so fucking miserable anymore. I want the vet to give her the medicine. please God help.

I also wanna note... like my mom said, this is something out of  a Stephen King novel. get this... my bf had a dog living here that had missing hair and constantly would bite itself from severe itchiness. looked like a zombie dog tbh... she recently died about 3 months ago or whenever I wrote about it. but he tells me it's a genetic thing. UM you're telling me...this dog had sparse hair from constant biting, rough skin and living in misery from constant scratching. we move in with my pets and my dog has the same issues and hasn't gotten better since we've been here 5 months ago. never had this problem til we moved here. now my guinea pig has the same skin condition??!? no I'm not buying it. no. something is wrong here. this house must be infested still with these mites or whatever and has now targeted my pets. I'm upset. I literally ranted about this and he got offended. I'm not trying to offend I'm just telling him this is no coincidence. I just stopped arguing about it being from the dog that lived here bc I know it's from that and the mites were never treated around the home. cuz when they infest you have to kill them all over. disinfect everything. all I could do is buy new blankets for my pigs tonight and throw out the old ones. all I can do until tomorrow... :( :( 

this is truly kill my heart. my pets suffering is an awful feeling...

i hate worrying

so I'm worried about my hair appointment now. there wasn't a consultation option on the new link they use for booking appointments. when my sister went in she told her I wanted to get my hair done soon and the girl said to book a consultation. but there wasn't any options for that, so I just chose the option closest to what I need. they didn't have an option for exactly what I need done because I am even kinda unsure how the process will go. I'm worried that if I get to my appointment she'll say she can't do all of the things I need done cuz she may have more appointments booked after me that day. my hair is going to take a long time. I need to have the pink fully removed for one and then she might possibly dye all of that part to match my roots and then highlight over it. I also have thick hair so if my mom's hair takes 4 hours I can only imagine mine taking up to 6 hours if she's gotta do all that. worried she won't be able to do it before my bday. I can't call cuz I have anxiety about calling for stuff like this. 

second thing I am worried about is I am running out of my medications and I don't know where to go since my doctor is gone now. last time I went to a walk-in clinic and it didn't sound like they wanted me to keep coming there for refills. they told me I need to find a new doctor. but idk any and I need these medicines by next week cuz I am literally almost out. idk how to find doctors. maybe i can go to the location my old doctor worked at and just use a diff doctor there idk. I hope they're even still in business at all. 

third I don't have insurance so it costs me about 90 bucks or more just to be seen for refills every 3 months. I still need to buy Christmas presents for some people so I'm worried I won't be able to in time cuz the dr visit, plus the costs of my medication is going to take up all of the money. just hate worrying about stuff cuz it takes over my mind and causes me to ONLY think about those things and stops me from functioning and doing stuff I should be doing. 

went out to happy hour Sunday evening and got mussels as an appetizer before deciding to go to Mexican restaurant. I ordered a jalapeño margarita. this lady at outside the restaurant told me how beautiful I looked and asked to look at my whole outfit. it was so nice 😊 I did love my outfit. I wanna recreate it next time we go out out. 

today my sister and I got cookie dough, frosting and sprinkles to make Christmas cookies sometime this week. ew when we were at the grocery store this creepy, old man was gawking our way down the isle. then he comes up to us and says to me "I see mini skirts are back in style". my sister said "ew." and I'm like "they've been in style..." then he was about to come down our isle when paying for our stuff... then he drove down our lane as he was leaving just to stare. fucking weird ass fuck. hate men. anyways, when my bf got home from work, sister's bf came over and my family and all of us all went to see the mansion lights. 

it was way bigger and more but this is all I got

I'm super tired right now. I want to sleep soon. I made my hair appointment and of course... of. course. I couldn't get my appointment in until Jan 19th. day AFTER my birthday. I wanted to get it done before but I look at it this way. my birthday falls on a week day and I won't be out partying til the following weekend after my birthday so it'll work out okay and my hair will be done for that. since I won't have time to get my extensions in the mail before then, I'll have to buy them before I get my hair done. I'll get a color the closest shade I think I can match and ask her if she can do her best to match it. 🥴 also I think I might be getting a new phone for my birthday as well. looks like I'll prob be switching to the iPhone 14 pro. I switch back to whatever has the best camera at the time and so far the iPhone beats the new Samsung as of today. 

weekend

Thursday I watched a bunch of gay Christmas movies. like I watched this movie... it's embarrassing ok but idk why I like this movie 😅 called Christmas Town. some low grade, family, romance Christmas movie I guess. then I watched one I grew up watching as a kid and it just came into my head. Its called Christmas Everyday. not Erik Von Detten 😂 but he's in that and I grew up with him being in movies, heart throb magazines and my fave Disney TV show So Weird. so I watched it for nostalgic purposes. took me back to being a kid watching that movie on my mom's room tv. then I watched another corny ass Christmas movie called Northpole. I like that one and I wanted to watch part 2 but it wasn't free or on any of my streaming services. idk why I like that one but maybe cuz I like Bailee Madison. 

Friday we got all our Christmas shopping done. we went to breakfast at Jan's  cuz my bf woke me up way too early and wanted to get breakfast. I got a Neptune omelet with fruit on the side. the omelet has scallops, crab meat, tiny shrimps and some sauce on it. it's pretty good but they give you so much food there I only ate half. we went to the mall and stopped at the new, fancy looking restaurant they have there now. we sat inside and ordered a beer before Christmas shopping to experience the new place. I got my sister's presents there at the mall then we went to Hobby Lobby to get crafts. I got stuff to make those earrings I made years ago. they're hearts with jewels on them. so Friday night we tripped and we watched Christmas movies and crafted. I had him drill tiny holes in the hearts for me so
I could loop the chain parts on it. I painted pink, black, purple, red, blue and white. I ran out of jewels tho so we had to go back out today to get more. we watched Slumber Land on netflix. as I'm watching it I'm thinking, why does the premise sound so familiar... then when they said 2 characters names I'm like oh it's Little Nemo: Adventures In Slumberland. I use to watch that movie all the time as a kid. it wasn't exactly the same story line but it was pretty good and trippy which is why we put it on to begin with. then we watched Bullet Train again cuz that's trippy as well. they filmed that movie to look so cool. we landed on Suicide Squad and eventually The Wave cuz it's our fave movie. lots of movies, lots of crafts.

I never fell asleep so I was awake all day and night but got up and we went to get my jewels from the craft store and we got a bunch of food to BBq. we have these bonding experiences where we decide on what food to make and what sides. so we got ribs, collard greens, baked beans, coleslaw and baked potatoes. we seasons the ribs and potatoes and i also made deviled eggs for snack. after that I planned to just take a nap so we could go to the mansion to look at the lights but I was way too tired. he ate with my family and they watched Wednesday. I was in the bedroom sleeping so hard 😓 I wanted to be awake but I stayed up all day Friday and night then didn't sleep til like 4pm. so he woke me up and said he's going to friends house to play music since he was bored cuz I kept sleeping. when he got back I woke up to eat the food we made. now probably going back to bed.

I still gotta buy my friend a gift to exchange with her as we do every year for like a decade. believe it or not I met her on Stickam when that was a thing. we've been exchanging Christmas presents since lol. I also gotta order my bfs presents too. but we got our families stuff done. tomorrow I think we're looking at the lights after my bf gets off of work. we might go see Violent Night since we didn't get to Saturday night on account of me sleeping the evening away. Monday me and my sister I think are making Christmas cookies. ⛄️

just finished decorating the Christmas tree. we didn't last night cuz I was so fuckin' tired and sick. finally, finally, FINALLY slept all night. took a small nap on evening too to catch up on so much missed sleep. hopefully it won't mess up my sleep cycle again. n*ewayz, the tree looks nice. we struggled putting the lights on I hope it doesn't look jumbled up.

Mr Dabs took over the tree. he loves it under there.

sleep deprivation continues... kinda

so I ended up falling asleep at like 6am or 6 30am... my bf woke me up at 9am😭 so I slept like 3 hours... got up after much procrastination and laying around and got ready to take us to the Punk Rock Flea Market.

I look pretty good for not much sleep in days I'd say

so I drove us up there, tha k God for Adderall cuz I wouldn't have been much of a safe driver with that lack of sleep. we got there and I had only 2 beers cuz I had to drive back, walked around and saw a Harley at one of the tents and bought her for 30. 

saw some friends through out our time there, talked to one of my friends Mel I haven't seen in a while. I got whiney and was ready to leave by the end of it cuz I was getting ATTACKED by mosquitoes. but my bf wanted to watch the last band play and I'm like.... I gotta go... I'll sit in the car and wait if I have to. I got like 5 bites on me, which is standard cuz I always get bit up. we left and then went to grab food from the store. I sat in the car while my bf went in cuz I didn't wanna be all dressed up in the store for some reason. 

by this point I'm getting tired and needing to keep moving otherwise I'd pass out. but my sister and her friends were suppose to meet us at the bar so I just waited around, walked around, talked to my mom and her to keep myself awake. I was so fucking tired but I wanted to go out cuz I was all dressed up. so I forced it. finally my brother dropped all 3 of us off at the Goose. my sister's friends showed up and she hung around them for a good portion of the beginning while my bf and I did our own thing. it's funny cuz my bf and I had a debate on what the girl that works at the bars  name is. he kept insisting it was one name and I kept saying it's not, he's just mixing her name up with another girl that use to work there. so we made a bet that if I was right he has to buy me a green tea shot. I called Markbob over and asked what her name is and BOOM I was right. green tea shot for me :D  our friend Tom came over to us and was nice to see him. we went over to the dart board where he and some other people I haven't seen it a long while were. we chilled over by them. then I started hanging out with my sister and her friends in the bathroom. we chatted a lot, they're super nice girls. but one of her friends disappeared and I totally forgot about her... then when it hit me, I'm like "where's your other friend?" she was throwing up in the bathroom the entire time, poor thing. so my sister tended to her and I kept keeping tabs on my sister. I don't like creeps bothering her. we Ubered back and I wasn't fond of letting my sister stay there alone (over protective I guess) ended up having my mom drive us over to pick her up pretty much when I got home. so we went back out and did that.... finally I'm home to sleep right? kinda. I barely sleep again. I woke up at like 6am.... I need to spend today sleeping. I'm also sick with a cold so I'm feeling pretty shitty today. 

after my bf gets home from work, we're going to decorate our Christmas tree. I love Christmas time 😭 

help

ok I can hardly see my eyes are so blurry. I haven't slept in so long... I was trying to fix my sleeping schedule by staying awake all day, yet here I am at 5am still awake and 1 klonopin later... I'm in tears because I really wanted to go to this Punk Rock flea market but I am worried I won't be able to go because of severe lack of sleep and by time it's time to go ill pass out. I'm suppose to drive us up there too, so my bf is relying on me for a ride to go so he can drink and mingle.

--so Thursday night I went to bed at like 12am and woke up at 3 30am.
--I stayed awake all day Friday until 2pm when we both took a 2 hour nap. he woke me up to go pick out the Christmas tree. I was so fucking tired, moody, mean, out of it. but once I got a coffee and we got our Christmas tree I had a second wind and was happy, albeit a little manic. so I get tired as hell by dinner time and we go to bed at 12am... I'm laying in bed, not sleeping, just my eyes closed with a billion different thoughts racing in my head.
--1 30am rolls around and I'm still awake so I take half a klonopin... nothing. I tried watching peaceful snow videos, listening to rain sounds... nothing. I canNOT sleep.
--4am comes upon me and I take the other half of the klonopin... it's 5 15am and I am in tears cuz I'm worried about  not  being able to go to the PRFM. I planned to stay awake all day to fix my sleeping schedule and have an outfit planned. I even volunteered to drive us up there and told him not to ask his friends for a ride "nah I can drive us" I say....... I'm having anxiety over this cuz I know hell wanna leave at 12 or 1... I'll probably by then be passed out cold and not be able to function.

speaking of cold I also spent all night sneezing and barely being able to move my head cuz of neck pain due to swollen throat. we all got colds here. my bf, my sister and even Mr Dabs is sneezing a lot.

I hate that and most of all I hate not being able to sleep. haven't slept in... idk but I've only had like 5 hours if sleep since Thursday night and it's Saturday morning now. fml 4 real. :*( as of right now, I feel like I could get up and go do stuff, but that's probably false and I'm actually sleep deprived and not realizing it. another bad thing about me missing sleep is it kicks in manic episodes. I need to be cautious.

im really depressed

I miss having my own room

wkend

we went out to see some band my bf likes around here play. one of the members is from Killswitch Engage he told me. I think I have like 1 song on my spotify by them... or at least I use to.  it was at this cute, tiny record store. I had anxiety to be honest and I looked cute until right when we got there I go in the bathroom to find my pigtail extension falling down. so I quickly had to scramble to take it out and re do it which gave me anxiety cuz I knew someone was waiting on the bathroom. I quickly put it in and then quickly drank 3 wine glasses so that I could socialize. we weren't there very long honestly. 

we went to The Goose afterwards and we asked one friend to come out but got no reply, then asked Megs to come out and she was with her bf, Paul, M.L and 2 other people. so tiny drama happened. the first friend we invited out showed up. and he and Megs do not get along anymore. he treated her badly too many times to the point she wants nothing to do with him and rightfully so. so he comes in and then all the sudden Meaghans bf pushes him into the bar. nothing too hard but still made him stumble backwards. Megs tells me that he called her a C U Next Tuesday the previous night for ignoring him and not wanting to speak to him. so her bf got pissed off and pushed him. now the sad think is, he has no idea he even called her that. he's such a bad alcoholic that he has no clue what he says and does to people. he's a broken soul and while he's never treated me poorly, he's treated many of my female friends poorly. like misogynistic type of thing. an angry, sad alcoholic and when he's sober he's super fun to be around. reminds me of how my step dad treated me and my mom. verbal abuse was severe many years ago when he would come home drunk. then act nice the next day cuz he had no recollection of how he was. it's shitty and alcoholism sucks and took my uncle away as well. sadly, I don't think my friend will ever recover. he's too broken after the loss of his daughter. but you can't go around calling people cunts and mistreating people (always women) and not reap shit back. he's never once mistreated me though. cuz if he did I know my bf would 100% cut him out of our lives. we just feel for him and there's some connection we all 3 have. it's complicated lol. 

anyways, by the end of the night I just took my extensions out cuz i didn't even care at that point. only a month or 2 til I can get my hair done and I'm countin' down the days. 

Idaho murders making me depressed

what do I do? these Idaho murders are plaguing my mind. I can't stop watching videos, news videos updates or reddit threads and thinking about it. I think because of the fact no one's been arrested. so it's unsolved and this person is just out there living life and doing who knows what in hiding. so far they cleared the guy in the hoodie at the food truck, cleared the 2 surviving room mates and cleared one of the victims ex bfs. so who could have stabbed 4 fucking people to death in one go?? alone? kinda crazy... or is it really? there was that 1 murderer who met his online gf and they went to a concert together. she was turned off by him and ignored him most of the time and he got mad about that and killed her, her friend and 2 parents. so he killed 4 people in one go with an axe while they slept. so its not unheard of. 2 surviving room mates living on the very first floor were unharmed, 2nd floor I think was the girl with her bf who were killed first, 3rd floor was the 2 girl's seen at the food truck prior. I read some where at least one of the victims had defensive wounds which I would think would be the girl with the bf. cuz you gotta think... they'd wanna get rid of the man in the house first so he can't fight off the killer. so the gf probably woke up while her bf was being killed and she defended herself cuz she was next. the other 2 girl's were killed next in their own rooms. according to online people, they say being stabbed in your sleep, you don't really scream you're more likely too surprised and not really able to react and are already stabbed so they let out a sound or a gasp but not a scream. some people are saying the cops might already know about someone but don't wanna scare them off so they either don't leave town or they don't lawyer up. kinda like the delphi murders. they kept that case quiet for 5 years. watching the guy and gathering as much evidence in secret as they can. so they maybe be staying quiet for now. which BTW the delphi man charged in the 2 girl's murder goes to court tomorrow. I hope they nail that motherfucker... they took stuff into evidence from his home. shit he buried. can't wait til that one comes to a closing. 

just all of these murder make me dwell. like I said, I think the reason is when they don't have anyone charged, it drives me insane because we don't know who they are and they're running free. so all of us are speculating and trying to figure out thr why and how. how can someone do this?? why would they do something so evil? being addicted to true crime has its consequences. :( I just hope they find this person or people because I cant imagine losing a family member or friend like this. :(

I know these families are torn up over this but personally, I wouldn't ever be caught giving interviews in public less than a week after my sister was killed. I'd probably never be okay again and I'd never talk to anyone about it. people obviously process this stuff different but fuck no. I wouldn't be able to bring myself to talking in any interviews publicly. I'd probably just go offline for a long fucking time. like years. but hey, people handle stuff differently and there is a shock too. I just don't know I'm just sad for the families.

:( :(

so I've been watching Youtuber Yumi King for years. in the later years a bit off and on, but I'm back to watching her struggles and I cant help but feel extremely bad for her situations as of now.

I use to watch her easy DIY videos like most of the gals that follow her channel but then she got this creepy, old ass husband. something was super off with this dude from the start, man. the whole thing... the whole relationship was super weird to literally everyone. Yumi came off as super childish, wore cute dresses and was into "kawaii" everything. literally me and probably why I gravitated toward her content more and more. BUT the childishness got a little too much for many viewers and the husband's reactions toward it all was.... creepy af. the way he treated her  like a little pet... a little girl was gross. always was condescending in how he spoke to her. in my opinion treated her like she was stupid and she may have played that off on YT but she's far from stupid.

she wanted to be married so bad and be pregnant so bad... which rushing into both of those things is a horrrrrrrible decision to make by anyone. I do believe her Chinese mother played a big part in her rushing marriage. because when I was visiting my family in Ohio, my Korean grandmother was asking me and my ex bf when we were going to get married and mentioned how it's important within minutes of meeting him. it's an Asian cultural thing for sure. so I think Yumi was brought up in the mind set that she HAD to be married with a child by a certain age. me and Yumi are about the same age and she was worried about not fulfilling those "requirements" before 30. I remember her videos expressing worry about being a "left over woman," or whatever she called it. so she rushed into this relationship with this man she met either thru her step father (creepy af if he set his daughter up with an old middle aged man) or on a dating site.

so she barely knew this man on a deep level (in my opinion upon viewing). it came to light that this weirdo had multiple, foreign wives in the past and had children with them. so he married these foreign women, gets them pregnant and dips. whether Y knew about this or not prior to marrying him is unclear to me but who knows what lies that creep told her. so... she gets pregnant... what do you know... he dips and denies the baby is his through court. what a piece of shit seriously. disgusting man who fetishizes foreign women and leaves them with children. not even apart of the children's lives. just denies them. how terrible for the children! every viewer saw this coming. 

so now she comes back on YT making videos in tears. she's been homeless with her baby living in different airbnbs and shelters. so the parents... the ones who we'd see on her videos seeming to care about her... nope... clearly do not seem to at all.  she came out to say she had been kicked out of her home 2 times now with her baby. left to fend for herself and no where to go. how shitty of human beings... parents at that are you!  that's so fucked up. you kick out your child, who you're suppose to do anything for... adult or not, you are a piece of shit for disowning your one and only daughter with a baby, for whatever fucking lousy reason. my mom would NEVER kick any of her children out. we're all adults and she always says there's a place at home with her... a loving family sticks together thru hard times. I'm sorry and I've said this hundreds of times but you don't disown your children if you really love them. that's it. you just don't. her mom and step dad are literally trash. they have money. they had/have 2 homes they own. Y was saying they helped her out a little then stopped and kicked her out (twice). disgusting. Y is trying to say 'well  they did help me a little...' no, babygirl... they should STILL be trying to help you and your infant son. you're an adult? so what? you're their child. if anything this shit is on the mother. her step dad, idk whatever... her mom married an old man too and wanted her daughter to do the same. she threw these ideals onto her own daughter... to marry an old creep. shame on her. 

cps took her baby away because she doesn't have a proper home to live in right now. she's staying in an airbnb. I'm so bothered by this and I don't even know her personally. but any person with empathy would feel sad hearing and seeing someone in such a horrible, awful situation. whether she rushed into things and shouldn't have been with a shitty man doesn't matter.... she's a person...a mom who cares about her son and is in a big struggle. if she lived near us I'd offer her a space in a second. my family has always been ones to take in friends and friends of friends who need help. that's just who we are.  I wish I had money to throw toward her Paypal because I would if I had it. I remember Trisha  Paytas donated her a couple grand to help her during her divorce. I thought that spoke volumes about who Trisha is as a person deep down. people hate Trisha for stuff she's said and done but at the end of the day she is a good person in my book. if you don't even know another content creator, that isn't crazy popular even, but decide to donate 2 grand, not broadcast or brag about it online... but just comment under her video expressing empathy and giving her some help. speaks volumes.  anyways this is on my mind right now and I wanted to get it out. I hate seeing people with shitty parents and shitty partners hurting people they're SUPPOSE to care about. gross. my heart goes out to her ♡

edit: some of what I said may be incorrect info but I'm going off memory of her previous videos when I use to regularly watch her content. 

Dear Yumi, if you ever stumble upon this post I hope that you can get to a place where you're comfortable and stress free. I hope you can find a new place that's suitable to get your son back. if you and I lived closer and I myself was in a better situation I'd allow you and your son into my home with open arms. you'd be welcome here. I am a strangers and you don't know me  but there are people out there that feel for you. reading your comments it looks like you have a lot of backers. I hope everything will work out for you and I'm sorry that your family is doing this to you. no family should ever put their loved ones in a place like this. I'm a long time viewer and I've been watching your journey on YouTube and I think you're a caring person who loves her son and would do absolutely anything for him. I think the love you have for your son will make things come together for you both. you'll get there. I hate to sound corny, but love conquers all. I think in the end you'll be okay I just hope it's sooner for you than later. ♡ good luck

double edit: she found a place :')

at Walmart when I was driving by to get a parking spot and my window was down... this guy was outside and yelled hey at me then said never mind as I drove by.
as we're leaving Walmart he asks where the hospital is and says he needs to get to the hospital ER... apparently he saw me and tried "getting a ride" from me til he saw my bf in the car and said never mind....

I'm like, call 911 then.... scary af

idaho murders

another murder case that happened Sunday. 4 Idaho College kids were stabbed to death wtf. how awful and senseless this is... and right by Thanksgiving too. I feel so bad for the families. apparently there were 2 other room mates in the house where the other 4 were killed. the 2 room mates weren't harmed at all. that's weird, like how does someone kill 4 people in a house and you not hear anything??? they said there wasn't a break in either and that this was a targeted situation. Twitch recording shows 2 of the girls ordering food from a food truck late at night around other college kids and this one guy people are talking about also visible in the twitch stream. 

I watched the twitch stream recording a couple of times and yea it definitely seems odd. so the stream shows the 2 girls walking in frame at the same time as this brown jacket/hoodie guy and the guy is seen standing far back from them while the girls go up and order their food. then they move over the other side of the food truck window to wait on their order and the brown jacket/hoodie guy walks over close to them. then he starts talking to this other  big guy... from my perspective it seems the girls do not know the man at all. they never talk to him. but the guy points toward them and the big guy started talking and pointing a bit and they keep chatting. at one point one of the girls seems to kinda talk to the big guy but not the brown jacket/hoodie guy... then the girls get their food, walk off and the big guy points at the girls in a "hey they're leaving..." way and the brown jacket/hoodie guy makes a gesture like "wtf?" and then follows after them. he puts his hand up like he says something and takes off in the other direction. super weird considering they don't acknowledge him at all and then he takes off when they do, after following them over to the food truck 2nd window. what  the  fuck.

obviously this guy could be innocent but that was weird. then the 2 room mates that were unharmed is weird too considering they were in the house when these other FOUR were stabbed. 4? how do you kill 4 people? and not alerting anyone in the house. idk it's weird as fuck and I hope they can solve this fast. I pray for the families cuz fuck. I couldn't imagine they're away at college and they get a phone call their children were murdered. fucked up. why are people like this? :(

weekend

Hurricane didn't even bother us much. power stayed on, no property damage or much damage at all in town. my sister and I dyed my hair pink and drove around in the storm (with the dye on my hair 🙃) which was like hard rain on and off. we drove to the park to check it out and it was flooded and blocked off. so we parked my car and walked around.

bf and I went to Carmelas to see our friend play music and we got an appetizer of meatballs. man, I don't drink much wine anymore but when places like that don't serve mixed drinks I choose wine over beer. so 2 glasses of wine down and I order a 3rd... I was drunk by the second glass and thought ugh I'm drunk and I still have a full 3rd glass left. so I drank it with sips of water in between. our friend stopped by and he ordered a pizza that we all 3 split. I'm not that big on pizza so I only had 1/2  a piece. then we went to this house he's been working on and he showed us around. had 1 beer and blah. I was kinda hungover the next day.

went out again last night to Crabbys Oyster Bar and damn it was good. I think I have an addiction to oysters now. I've had them before and I know I like them, but fuuuuhhh it was so good. we got 6 oysters each, an appetizer of "cracked conch" and we split an entree of shrimp and rice. our bill was 100.00 eek! but it was worth it cuz the food was so good. this guy behind us with his elderly father... don't get me started. so the guy was SOOOO LOUD. like, yelling about how he got covid 3 times and went into detail about him throwing up and shitting (what's with these people in restaurants talking so loud about nasty stuff) it's just so fucking rude! so he's yelling stuff and my bf is getting super annoyed and, quite frankly, pissed off. so he starts saying loudly back "I just love hearing about people shitting and vomiting everywhere while I'm out to eat". I told him to stop cuz I don't want trouble and it increases my anxiety when my bf is mad in public. he's chilled out a lot this past year and tries not to escalate problems. while my bf wanted to turn around and say something I told him not to. I don't want a scene caused. anyways this guy is just LOUD af. he was a total douche and we over heard him say "thanks dad for the food:.... the dad didn't even talk much  if at all. it was just the son yelling about boats, covid and my bf said he heard him tell his father to check out some girls ass that came in the restaurant with her significant other. like fuck off. I hate creeps so much. a creepy douche at that. aside him, the food was so good and we wanna go back and just order a ton of oysters. I'm ADDICTED TO OYSTERS HELP.  we walked down to the bar and hung around there for a few drinks and to catch up with our friend that works there. got an uber back home and then I asked my brother if he'd take us to McDonald's 😅

so I have pink hair now since blonde hair and grown out roots are boring me, I just slapped it on. when I'm scared I just slap on the dye and say "too late". I love the color but I personally wish it was a more pastel pink not so much a fuchsia or whatever. so I'm gonna fade it out. luckily pink hair dye fades pretty quickly. I'm thinking about dying my pigtail extensions to pink too. might as well since I'm not having bleached blonde hair anymore. in about a month or 2 I'll have my hair a natural blonde so I wouldn't be using those extensions anyways. might as well make then pink I guess. I got called Harley Quinn again. my hair isn't even blonde anymore it's fucking pink and I wasn't wearing full on pigtails. I can't escape it. I love Harley and I use to love the compliments. but sometimes it gets kinda old. I just heard "Halrey Quinn!" over and and over so I looked over and I asked him what and he replied again Harley Quinn so I half forced laughed. it's just awkward. idk what I'm doing today but tonight...  me, my bf, sister and her bf are gonna get food at the ale house if she gets off work in time. I kinda wanna get a healthier option tonight. I've been eating a lot of carbs and starchy foods that aren't good for me and it's taking a toll.

I woke up way too early and I wanna roll over but Mr Dabs is laying here and I don't wanna disturb his sleep 😅 I love when he lays with us

sigh

I can't believe Dance Gavin Dance is bringing Tilian back as the singer. they're gonna lose a lot of fans. dumb, bad move. I can separate the artist from the art but not everyone will. should have just left him out of it. I do not agree with the decision at all.

Hurricane Nicole

all I have to say about it is 🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄 I'm not worried about it but I definitely don't wanna lose any power.  but where the emoji is is where I am 😭

I feel especially bad for my friend on the west coast cuz they got slammed hard by the last hurricane. 

so I'm gonna dye my hair pink again because I'm bored af waiting on my hair to grow out. its boring just blonde with roots. so I need to do something. I asked my sister to grab me some pink hair dye from her work tomorrow so I can do my hair before Thursday. I hope we don't lose power ugh. dealing with legal issues, worry, stress and now another hurricane. love that 😒 not. 

also haven't able to sleep cuz I'm way to obsessed with the Delphi murder case and I keep looking up all I can on youtube. they think it's bigger than just bridge guy and a whole ring of creeps involving "Cheese Pizza". apparently, the first guy they arrested had this fake IG account where he was talking to minors that he let other people use to do the same thing. like renting out the IG for other creeps to use to get pics and stuff from children. the FUCK. so my guess is the Delphi murderer had access to that account and knew where the girls were gonna be thru that fake IG. still trying to figure out but won't know 100% until trial is over and someone or people have been sentenced. I think they're trying to bust many people. it's insane story I'm literally watching unfold in real time. I went to the killers wife's FB again and saw all the videos and pics were back on there. she must have archived them and then published them again publicly. weird idk. I just cant understand how, as a wife... you've been married to this man since you were 19 (I hear tell)... and you've seen the police sketches and the video of him on the bridge saying "down the hill" and you are oblivious to that being your husband for many years????? make that make sense idk. and they dropped a bunch of charges off the first guy prob cuz he gave up bridge guy's name in return. cuz fake IG guy arrested first then right after bridge guy was arrested... so fucked.  n*e*wayz.

all I know is this case is kinda taking a toll on me cuz it's all I research and I what I think about before I sleep and it's seeping into my dreams. can't be healthy, right? I'm just so invested :( I want justice for these angels and their families. 

delphi man arrested

they finally arrested someone for the murders of the 2 little girls in Delphi, Indiana. so I have been on reddit and youtube learning more and more. people put together the guy on the bridge's voice to the videos that the suspects wife posted via Facebook before deleting it all. I gotta say... as grainy as the victims video recording of the man on the bridge is, he looks exactly like the guy they arrested. it's still an ongoing investigation and he hasn't been found guilty... he just has been arrested and charged in their murder. so everyone's kinda giving their own ideas on it. but the guy definitely looks the same. his wife even had videos of him briefly speaking and sounds just like the bridge guy's voice. like at least ridiculously similar. and then, wtaf? the guy and his wife were photographed in a bar and behind them was a police sketch of the killer. how fucked up is that? it's as if he's taunting like "haha you'll never catch me" while being cocky in front of his police sketch. what a POS. the wife ended up deleted her photos and videos after people started piecing together the same jacket he was wearing in the victims video as her (wife)'s Facebook videos. that's suspicious as fuck to delete all that. if she was getting hate and she is completely in the dark about everything... make your Facebook private then. don't delete potential evidence... unless she knows what he did or is protecting him whether she knows or doesn't. another creepy thing, is their daughter was photographed on the same bridge that the girls were on before they were told to "go down the hill" and were murdered. it's just so damn suspicious. him and his wife, all of it. I'm not saying the wife was in on it but deleting things is kinda sus'. 

my heart truly breaks for the girls and their families. honestly. I cannot imagine the pain they're dealing with. I made a comment about my thoughts on how one man could kill 2 girls, and someone... a troll? blasted me and said my comment was stupid (they said worse) but the gist of it is that they said my comment was stupid as fuck. what I said was that he was probably able to get both girls because one of the girls would never leave her best friend behind. in one of the victim's mothers own words "they always would stick together" and the one girl was not a push over and kinda looked out for the best friend. if I were in that situation with my friend or someone I care about, I wouldn't leave their side either. I'd never leave them alone. people are saying one should have run to get help... but I couldn't. I wouldn't leave someone I care about alone with danger. plus he might have had a gun or something, no one knows yet. the family wants the evidence sealed until someone is found guilty so that nothing gets fucked up in the case. I understand that fully. so basically were all just waiting and hoping this guy gets found guilty. I have a huge feeling it's him and they obviously have evidence to back that up. 

interestingly enough when the police spoke out at a press conference he said "we know you're hiding in plain sight and are probably in this room right now" and said they WILL find him. they kept their investigation heavily sealed for 5 years and now they have arrested this Richard Allen guy. the judge stepped down and handed over the case to a judge more advanced. the case is so big for a small town like Delphi... I have family that live 40 minutes from there. my mom grew up 40 mins from Delphi and her town is small af. their mall doesn't even have name brand stores. 

I keep reading and reading post after post about this case. it's bothered me for years. I hope this gets resolved quickly so the families can have answers 

Halloween night

went out for Halloween night. idk why but I felt uncomfortable about being in a costume so I just dressed how I usually do when I go out. just added extra makeup, sprayed some fake blood and called it a night.  we went to Terra to see some Metallica cover band lol. I'm not into Metallica at all and I felt I was one of the youngest people there. it was mostly people in their 40s and 50s in costume getting down to metal music. the group did make the show cool looking though. they did a Halloween costume contest i would have done if I were in my costume from Friday night and extra drunk. but it's hard to get drunk quickly off of seltzer drinks. I hate when places don't serve liquor. the night went okay I guess, wasn't as fun as Friday in my opinion. my bf made me take pics of him with people's costumes and I just didn't want to. I had anxiety most of the time. the night got better when this dude was handing out glowing wands and I got the handle with the heart shape. looked like it was Sailor Moons or something. when his work friend showed up, we went to Harpers again. his work friend seems fond of that place cuz we only go cuz he goes pretty much. of course some younger dudes at the bar said shit to my bf and telling him to buy them shots idk... and my bf had to spout back at them saying cringey shit like "see her over there. I'm with her..." or something like that he told me. 😵‍💫 I'll have to ask him what happened again but it sounded dumb af lol. maybe I'll ask him and edit the post for memory sake.

took uber back home and vaguely remember it but according to my text messages he was talking the drivers ear off 😹

Seedy bathroom pic

the rest

the girl I met with the same costume. got the pic. she sent them to my bfs Fb so I got ahold of it.

Halloween fun

got dropped off in downtown stuart last night and met Paige at Harpers (didn't get into a fight this time 😅) and we got a shot and a couple drinks before going to "Emo" night at Lush lounge. I'll get into that in a min... soo Paige has a bf now and he's super cool. he apparently knows my sister cuz he's her piercer and he's like "I didn't know she was your sister" and said many Bice things about her. was pretty cool. he also gave me a Wavy Bar so looks like I'm tripping tonight... anyways, after we got drinks there we took a Lyft to Lush lounge and like... our Lyft driver was interesting. he had a disco light thing set up in the back like a party and a fuzzy bear steering wheel cover. he sounded... I hate to be mean but it's facts ok. his voice sounded funny like as if he was joking and doing it on purpose but I think he night have been special needs. it was pretty awkward but we were super nice to him. he made it sound like it was his first time being a Lyft driver and immediately I'm like uh, are we safe? but he clarified that we were his first pick up of the night and he's been doing Lyft for a long time. as we got out of the car a girl at the front door was like "was he weird?" I made a face like nah and shook my head. he was weird but nice. 

okay so were at Lush (which sucks). they don't serve liquor, just beer and wine, they told a trans person in the past I blogged about that they didn't wanna serve them cuz they were trans and Emo night what a joke. I was thinking they'd be playing like My Chemical Romance, The Used, Brand New and shit but nope, they played Avril Lavigne and Simple Plan like..... so the music sucked, it was too packed tightly and no liquor so we noped out after we met up with my sister. went to our usual, The Goose. it was packeddddd and believe it or not I feel like there wasn't THAT many people dressed up. Lush had more people dressed up including a girl with the same costume as me, so on our way out I was like hey and pointed at both our outfits and she wanted a pic of us together lol. oh and there were furries there, one on a leash but ok.

anyways

Paige's costume was awesome 😂 and it's funny cuz she rode her scooter in that outfit and makeup/wig. I died when she told me and said a big moth or bat hit her in the face. I can't! I'd have paid to see her dressed like that riding a scooter 

I still have a billion pics to post but I gotta leave