I keep sleeping. like... sleep all night awake part of the day til about noon or so then back to sleep. then awake again... then asleep again by evening. it has to be depression and lack of vitamins. still trying to get on my proper medications. such a chore without health insurance. 

my computer desk is on its last leg... really... its about to collapse. so I bought a new one. a pink one that's 3 inches bigger in width. my room has hardly any space all because I have to keep my guinea pig cage and hamster cage in here. I cant put them in the outer rooms cause the cats. so it takes up soo much space. hopefully the way I organized everything it'll still fit. I put my TV in my closet. and moved all of the clothes to the other side of the closet. so that's one less furniture out of the way. wish I had a bigger house.

RIP <\3

I wanted to make a separate post for this but I want to talk about my friend Brad. he died last year unnexpectedly at this time and I hate that. he has been a good friend to me for nearly 20 years. in school together, the bus rides, detentions and break ups I had with boyfriend's he was always there with me. I saw him 2 days before he died and I would have never expected such a thing. which is so scary cuz you just never know when someone will be gone. ugh. I hope he is playing music where ever he is. 

ugh I got 25 lbs of timothy grass for my guinea pigs but it was 3rd cut and my guinea pigs are hardly eating it. so I have to buy 1st cut and now I'll have 50 lbs of hay????? I need to get some cheap bins to store it all in. could probably store some in the garage. I feel so bad though my guinea pigs are waiting and wheeking at me by the windows. I'm gonna have to grab a small bag til the hay comes. :(

I want to stream but every time I get up to do it its so late and no one joins cuz i procrastinate cuz I am nervous about it. I hate dealing with bipolar. I'm either manic and on a high and doing lots of shit I need to do or I'm sad and a shut in. so I haven't been that active on social medias. I hope no one is disappointed at me for slowly posting to my of. I lost 10 subs man. 😢 sigh 

I need to talk to my doctor and get on actual bipolar medications. just anti depressants isn't cutting it. 

my pink hair has faded quite a bit to what I wanted but I might just do pink at the ends now like Harley but all pink no blue. too difficult to keep up with pink hair all over. have to bleach roots every month or so, then tone and color it pink. 

🥰

my bf and I had a really nice weekend. we went to one of my favorite restaurants in downtown FP. it's relatively cheap for us getting so much. we both got thai dishes, sushi plate, 2 sakis, a beer for him and diet coke for me. so much food for such a great price. so if you're reading this and are local go to Wasabi. 

we are thinking about having a mini getaway sometime soon probably next weekend. decided An airbnb on the beach somewhere else. maybe Melbourne area 🤔 my grandma Mum is paying for my brother's graduation gift taking a trip to St Augustine. I have actually never been there to look around before and I have always wanted to. historic.

happy July 4th of 2021

I was suppose to go to a party but misunderstood the time I was suppose to get ready and slept way in. so my bf and I went to see fire works together. 

I was sad though I did wanna go to the party to see friends I hadn't seen in a long time. but we made our night just a fun :) 

just finished bleaching my roots finally, toning and reapplying the pink hair dye. the color ot is right now isnt exactly what I want but after 2 or 3 washes it's the pastel pink I longed for... and without roots.