I cant believe it's almost 4th of July next. time goes by so fast its a lil' scary. Florida is starting to get extremely hot outside. I hate it. 😒 

but plans are coming together... I think my bf and I are going to Chicago for Riot Fest this summer. it's gonna be hot of course but I am in it for Nine Inch Nails and My Chemical Romance. my bf is in it for all the punk bands and NIN. I think he wants to go to Rockville too. many plans.

I've been playing Overwatch again. it's so fun I spend so many hours and days on it. I wish I had a regular switch, but I have to switch lite. I'll invest in a regular one at some point. I want to stream Animal Crossing so bad. I've watched a few Animal Crossong streams. 

I want to stream on my twitch/streamlabs site but I need that liquid courage. I have a tiny bit of vodka but not enough. I reset up my page to look cute and to match my stream layout. 🙃

bf has band practice Wednesdays so I will be able to stream Mondays thru Wednesdays. ✔

I dyed most if my hair pink for summer. 

gave my friend a fun birthday sunday

I am glad he had fun and it went well... even though I was only on a few hours of sleep o ended up having a great time.

I slept for pretty much 2 days. woke up a little after the full day of sleeping to eat then went back to sleep. I'm caught up.

onky thing now is I am depressed? idk why other than maybe cause my monthly started so I have pms. feeling super down right now and teary.

my bfs tattoo shop where he works had to shut down due to nearly everyone there having corona. so hes out of work all week which sucks cause he isnt gonna be making any when there's bills to be paid. hopefully everyone gets better soon.

I need to go home to grab my new windshield wipers so my bf can help me put them on. or my sisters bf... whoever... in serious need to change them since it's rainy time in Florida. sucks I used all of my pay for things that are needed but I'm glad I got them done. my car is slowly but surely on its way to fixing. I need a new tire next. an alignment and of course the parts for the back.

I did it!

programmed my key and the fob today

this is my broken one lmao look at this monstrosity 

super glue, tape and beads glued on to make buttons which is just glued shut so they didn't work.

new key

fuck yes. now I don't have to be careful or nervous every time I switch the engine on.

there are only a few truly good friends out there

I still have yet to fall asleep. been up all night doing psychedelics and watching animated movies with my boyfriend. we decided fuck it, we will just stay awake... get mcdonalds breakfast, park and eat while watching the sunrise. then headed over to the key place for them to cut my new car key. I just have to program it. you have to do weird steps like "close door 6 times... put key in ignition 2 times... shut door this that blah blah" I tried it and I clearly didn't do it right. but I watched this tutorial on it and apparently I was doing it wrong. I'll try again when I get fucking sleep.

had a good past few days honestly... sleep? we don't know her. I haven't slept in like 3 days. not true sleep just couple hours here and there.

went to Mexican food with my friends freddie and Corey and actually had a super fun time. my bfs gig was cancelled due to rain so we just grabbed 2 drinks at the bar and headed to Cinco De Mayo for some Mexican cuisine. did 2 tequila shots. gag I hate tequila but I shot them like a champ. 

giving my friend a birthday party Sunday night. 🎉 once I finally get some sleep here shortly were gonna get up and do last night all over again 😆 

i am honestly glad with our friends group lately. cut out anyone affiliated with drama and just negative vibes. we don't want negative energy sucking the fun and happiness of life. toxic people, gotta go... we talked about that a lot lately and I think it's just such a healthier thing mentally for us. we'll for anyone honestly. so yea, our friend group is gradually getting smaller as we nope the fuck away from negative energy. if you have something or somebody to complain about, be angry about or just say rude shit and just be shitty. you can't sit with us. 

all I have to say about that all that so enjoy a pretty sunrise pic I took this morning burnt out on psychs and eating McDonald's breakfast burritos with my boyfriend. 💞

 when you need your anti-depressants but are too depressed to go pick them up.