2021 sucks.already wtf

I havent slept in days. I mean, not real sleep where I am dreaming. Deep sleep or whatever. Been partying way too much the past few days. Although it was New Years Eve... but we kept partying next day. Then had a birthday party to go to so more partying and no sleep. Maybe this is what they call a bender?  Fuck. I am so exhausted. Top all of that, my sister got into a small accident in my car this morning. So not only do I have a damaged trunk from years ago that I did... I now how new damage on the bumper of my car. Its smashed in at the corner............... 

It has been a very hard year for my family too. Now this. Im just over everything. I haven't been happy deep down for some time now. So my boyfriend and I decided to chill on the partying and get back to low carb dieting. I lost 9 lbs eating healthier and low carb for 2 months but gained it all back from the Holidays and just being plain lazy and getting fast food or take out. 

So ok, Zack, my sisters bf is gonna go to a junk yard this week to find the parts to my car to be replaced. Hes into cars so hell fix it. He said should be about 75 bucks. Not bad... so I am glad about that. I am starting my low carb diet today. Made some broccoli and zucchini for lunch. Drinking a ton of water and finally a nap. I need it.

Tonight my boyfriend and I are doing more pour paintings and just have a relaxing craft night. Then I would like to sleep at a decent time to get rested.

Last night I dressed up and went to this restaurant for my friend's party. Some waitress asked me where I got my outfit and if I have an onlyfans. I told her no and she said she would have subscribed. 😂 seems like everyone knows about onlyfans or has one. Its a pretty popular platform but my boyfriend is like hell no. Doesn't want me doing that 😂

sticker on my top is a picture of my burthday friend when he was young. Too funny. Also I took this in his kids bathroom so the mirror is dirty for that reason.