I have a video doctor appt over phone in like an hour, I hate doing it 'cause of my anxiety but I have to. once it's over with though Im like, that wasn't that bad. then I need to get ready to go to the DMV. getting my license reinstated which means new ID pic so I wanna look cute though that never works. most people's ID pics come out ugly. although my last one wasn't bad because the woman let me take it 3 times and MADE me smile to look good in it :Dbut I doubt I'll get lucky to get someone as nice as her again at a DMV. 

My bf is coming over to drop off my gaming chair. I've worked on my gaming area all week. I just need this particular cord that (should arrive tomorrow)  helps me hook up my second monitor since my laptop only has 1 hdmi port. I also want to get some LED lights to put under the desk and behind the monitors for cool effect :P got everything else all set up. it's coming along again. I took it all down once because I thought I'd be gaming more over at my boyfriend's. but I ended up never bothering 'cause I have better internet. so back to putting my stuff back together and getting it all set up.

tomorrow he's taking me to dinner for my birthday. didn't bother getting a specific birthday dress or anything since I'm not having a party this year like last year. my friends took me out to dinner and to the bar last year. but this year it's just me and my bf. so I am gonna wear a dress I have laying around here to dinner. 

sitting here with purple shampoo in my hair. for some reason the bottoms don't stay as pale blonde as the tops of my hair, so I have been using it for 3 days now to get rid of the brassiness. 

my father came thru with the money to help me figure out my car situations. so tomorrow I am goin to the DMV to get a new license, so I wanna look cute for my ID picture. then it's open mic night again so I'll be going with my bf to that. 

accidentally bought the wrong chargers to my phone, so I clicked return item, but they just refunded me and said I don't have to return anything.

I think some time in the near future I am gonna be getting another guinea pig. my cage size is for 2-3 guinea pigs, so I am gonna get a 3rd pig to add to the mix. I love guinea pigs... I think I am gonna go to a shelter to adopt one this time. hopefully this one will like to be picked up. mine hate it. but they sure don't mind snatching treats from me 😂

I still need to find a birthday dress, my time is limited. I also need to go to the thrift shop to look for a new desk. I want my 2 monitors back so I need a bit bigger desk. I also want my chair back from my boyfriends house so I need him to transfer it back here.

this weekend my mom and my sisters bf are suppose to check out the junkyard to try and find parts for my car. need a trunk and back bumper replacement. he said he saw some already. then need my bf's vehicle to transport those parts here. my sister's bf will be fixing it. I can't wait to have my car all fixed. he said he is gonna clean it too so it looks new. we did a lil test on part of it and when he used this stuff, it looked brand new. it's crazy how much build up has gotten on it over the years and regular washes can't clean.

my bf is taking me to dinner for my birthday. I requested Indian food. hopefully we can find a place 'cause the good one shut down. I can't believe I weigh the same as when I lost those 6-9 lbs. especially after eating badly during the holidays. nothing changed but back to my low carb/healthier eating. 

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ThatChapter  - true crime (favorite of all)

Shrouded Hand - spooky stuff

SomeOrdinaryGamers - spooky Stuff, gaming stuff, deep web browsing

Lazy Masquerade - spooky stuff

Kurtis Conner - comedy

Lucas - comedy

Nick Crowley - spooky stuff

Horrible Reviews - movie reviews (most disturbing movies)

Nexpo - spooky, strange stuff

PhilipSoloTV - hilarious

Barely Sociable - spooky stuff

ScareTheater - spooky stuff, strange stuff

Reignbot Horror - spooky stuff

clearly, I have an interest 

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My license expired last year, (which makes it suspended), oop. My mom was using my car and she got pulled over. The cop asked whose car it was and she explained. He told her that if I were driving it, he would have had to take my license plate and he would have left me on the side of the road......

So I need to go renew it and then get a new tag since my birthday is coming up anyway. More money I have to come up with I do not have.  I emailed my father, and asked for help (which I hate doing). But he is going to help me pay for my ID and tag renewal. So I need to be careful driving my car around & only drive when really needed until he sends the check in the mail and I can get my license updated. That's the most important step. 

I made a Depop account to start selling clothes/accessories I no longer wear just for some extra side money for a bit. My sister does it all of the time.

My bf wanted a website too so I made him one. Took me about 4 hours but it's done. He wanted it to look like my but his own style (not girlie). It looked better imo with the yellower bg but he wanted the orange one. 😒

My sister got me this car air freshener since she got in the accident with my car

slept from 3pm - 12am. Tried playing pubg on pc but had to lay down, feel sick.

2021 sucks.already wtf

I havent slept in days. I mean, not real sleep where I am dreaming. Deep sleep or whatever. Been partying way too much the past few days. Although it was New Years Eve... but we kept partying next day. Then had a birthday party to go to so more partying and no sleep. Maybe this is what they call a bender?  Fuck. I am so exhausted. Top all of that, my sister got into a small accident in my car this morning. So not only do I have a damaged trunk from years ago that I did... I now how new damage on the bumper of my car. Its smashed in at the corner............... 

It has been a very hard year for my family too. Now this. Im just over everything. I haven't been happy deep down for some time now. So my boyfriend and I decided to chill on the partying and get back to low carb dieting. I lost 9 lbs eating healthier and low carb for 2 months but gained it all back from the Holidays and just being plain lazy and getting fast food or take out. 

So ok, Zack, my sisters bf is gonna go to a junk yard this week to find the parts to my car to be replaced. Hes into cars so hell fix it. He said should be about 75 bucks. Not bad... so I am glad about that. I am starting my low carb diet today. Made some broccoli and zucchini for lunch. Drinking a ton of water and finally a nap. I need it.

Tonight my boyfriend and I are doing more pour paintings and just have a relaxing craft night. Then I would like to sleep at a decent time to get rested.

Last night I dressed up and went to this restaurant for my friend's party. Some waitress asked me where I got my outfit and if I have an onlyfans. I told her no and she said she would have subscribed. 😂 seems like everyone knows about onlyfans or has one. Its a pretty popular platform but my boyfriend is like hell no. Doesn't want me doing that 😂

sticker on my top is a picture of my burthday friend when he was young. Too funny. Also I took this in his kids bathroom so the mirror is dirty for that reason.