good weekend

this weekend i went to a drive in movie for the first time. friday the 13th played on friday the 13th. i went with my boyfriend and his daughter while she was visiting. it was actually a lot of fun and wanna go back.

on saturday i ended up going out as seen here:

had a lot of fun as as usual on weekend im drrrrunk. before all that though, we went to dinner with bobby and meaghan. went to fujyiama where they cook in front if you and do fun stuff. basically benihana. i barely ate because i wasnt hungry but had amazing left overs.

depressed still. i tried getting out of it last night but back to sad. whenever i am sad and becoming manic due to bipolar i shop. i go on massive sprees. i am poor too right now, so this isn't good right now.

just ordered 5 pairs of lashes, shoes and an outfit. ;[

i feel so fucking depressed. i don't want to get out of bed, shower, eat much or even move. i just lay in bed all day and night the past couple of days, staring into nothing with the hours long anxiety attacks. i can't take this. i don't want to feel this way & i can't make it stop. my mind wont stop. i can't breathe sometimes over it and my vision shakes. my sister is making me some dinner 'cause it's obvious something is wrong. i'm sad, tired and feel helpless right now. pray 4 me ;[

 what kind of tools are these? I thought they were dental tools but I'm thinking maybe more art tools. like for sculpting clay?? I don't know but I tried searching these same ones. I found them at some shop that sells vintage items.

 hungoverRrrr. 

of course the package didn't cancel and they shipped it. but I cancelled the delivery & it said they will refund me and return it so that works.

went in the hot tub again at a friends house and took out my extensions. of course left them there too I think. but maybe not and I brought them home to my bf's? don't remember but will find out after my bf is out of work tonight. I hope they're there. make things easier.

wish i could sleep this hangover off. :[

stuff to say

 Halloween night was fun. EXCEPT wtf with the costume contest. Us and another group went beyond with our ideas. Neither of us won. Who won you might ask? A girl dressed as a CAT! wtf, how generic can you get. Oh wait, her ass was hanging out and she had her group of friends cheer her on so she got the loudest vote. BS man. aside from that rigged contest the night was pretty fun. I got hammered and apparently went to a cemetery after which I have no recollection of but the pics prove otherwise.

I ordered a new Instax Mini (version 11) last night and cancelled my order because I didn't want to wait 2 days. So I re-ordered it so that I can get it tomorrow instead. so fucking dumb. I never think I just always act impulsively... so now I'm paranoid that the first order won't cancel. I mean, it hasn't shipped yet. says it's preparing for shipment and that it isn't guaranteed to cancel. so I am all anxious and worried over this. I guess if I get both of them in the mail, I can return it for a refund at Kohls where they accept Amazon returns.

this election thing is happening I guess. people get mad when you don't vote. but I don't vote because they are all corrupt. I can't do it. I just can't. I feel wrong voting for either parties 'cause I just don't like either of them. I also get so fucking annoyed by the celebs that constantly tweet shit about politics. no one cares what they have to say. I have literally blocked so many celebs that don't stfu about their ideas and beliefs on politics just so I don't have to see their annoying posts. like they think they do something... everyone is allowed to voice opinions. even celebrities but god... some of them it's just ALL they talk about. & people that are like "if so and so becomes president, I'm leaving the US". it's like fine bitch. leave. no one cares.

ok I am done rating.

I cannot believe Christmas is already almost here. then my birthday, gag. I don't even want any party. I just wanna be taken out to dinner or whatever and then go out for drinks in a party dress. I don't need a decorative party like last year. let's just hope this year I don't fall off a fucking chair and dislocate my arm again. 😁

halloween night was fun